it was a funny day ! (:

today was such a wonderful day!! i feel so proud of myself coz i accomplished alot of my overdue work!! YAY!! PTL!! and seriously.. by His grace, i survived today! i slept only 3 hrs last night but i managed to go thru all the lessons w/o falling aslp! moreover, i completed alot of my work!! WHEE!! (:

so anyway… school was good today i must say! hee. getting that motivation to study and do my work once again! but then again, i still really need to learn how to prioritize my time! i’ve yet to call 2 pple! gosh.

i went to study with dearest lu and dearest sheryl after school today! and i must say, it was not only fruitful but fun!! hee. i had so much fun studying with them.

firstly, i must say that sheryl was rather amusing! haha. she was studying chem and well… she asked some really ‘weird’ chem qns that got me and lu laughing. haha. but i shall not mention it here! give her some face! hee. =P

but the really funny part came when lu received a msg from an anonymous person. allow me to recount wat happened.

lu showed sheryl the msg.
both of them gave puzzled looking faces to each other.
being the curious me, i asked to see the msg.
upon seeing the msg, i was MOMENTARILY STUNNED. this was wat’s typed in the msg “L.O.V.E” subsequently, i started giggling and asked lu to reply the person! haha.
and of course, while waiting for the person to reply the msg, sheryl and i started speculating that it must have been one of lu’s secret admirers who cannot help but to finally confess his love for her! haha.
so when the msg finally came in, sheryl and i were waiting anxiously with heart thumping so quickly becoz we eagerly wanted to noe who that person was! we stared at lu as she opened the msg!
and when we tot we found a new scandal to make fun of lu abt, she gave this really DIAO look! so we tot that maybe someone played a prank on her.
and as she showed us the msg, sheryl and i cldnt stop laughing! haha. instead of replying who that person was, this anonymous person replied her this “send this msg to 15 pple in 3 days and u will have ur loved one by your side. otherwise, u will be cursed for 7yrs.”
HAHA! tat got me and sheryl laughing non-stop! and we were in the library doing our work! having to suppress our laughter and keep our volume down in the lib was really difficult! haha.
so anyway… lu decided to reply again and ask who that person was. and when the reply finally came in, all 3 of us juz couldnt stop laughing! haha.
this was the reply “i am ____ from the haigs girls camp.”
-faints- we really couldnt stop laughing at all!! it was really funny! moreover, this girl was one of those that lu facilitated in the camp ONE YEAR AGO. and so randomly, she decided to send that msg to lu! haha.

HOW ODD!! seriously… u have to be there urself to experience the funny-ness of it! if it wasnt for the place we were in, i can tell u all 3 of us would have been laughing so loudly like 3 mad women! and sheryl!! she would have rolled on the floor while laughing!! AHAHA!

so yup!it was indeed a funny day!! a funny and fruitful day!! haha.

and i wanna watch the bball match next mon!! anyone interested to share the cab fare with me?? it’s all the way at clementi la!! -faints-

EASTER ! (:

my blog seems rather quiet now. i guess partly becoz of my really busy schedule, i havent had much time to blog and update abt my life. i rmb i used to blog almost everyday. but now, having to find the time to blog everyday is rather difficult. furthermore, my sis has been using the com almost every single night i hardly have the chance to use. coz by the time she’s done with the com, it would have been past 12midnight alr. oh wells. i shall juz try to squeeze out wat time i have to try and blog as frequently as possible. (:

last weekend was definitely a busy one for me! i hardly had the time to do my school work! =S -faints- but wateva it is, it was a fruitful weekend! and why do i say that? becoz it was a time of great harvest! (:

last weekend was easter! it was my first time, as a Christian, celebrating easter! and i finally understood wat good friday and easter is all abt! Jesus, our saviour, died on the cross for our sins. He was crucified so that we could live. He could have taken the easy way out. but He didnt. He knew that His death was in the will of God.. that He was sent down to earth for this very reason — to die for our sins.

when He was on the road to cavalry, He could have sent down thousands of legions of angels to destroy the Roman soldiers who crucified Him and eventually, wipe out the whole entire world. but no! He didnt! He chose to die for our sins. WE were the reason why He died. WE were the ones who nailed Him to the cross. why did He choose to be nailed to cross?

He knew well beforehand that He was going to suffer. He could have juz chosen to escape instead of being held captive by the Roman soldiers. but why didnt He do that?

the answer is simple — Jesus simply loves you and i too much to see us suffer. He would rather suffer on our behalf and fight satan face to face in hell than to let us go to hell. His love for us was and still is pure. wat sacrificial love. wat a wonderful love. wat perfect love. no one could have understood the agony and suffering that He had to go thru. the Son of God was crucified by His very own creation. they shouted crucify at the foot of cross. can u imagine how torn His heart was? but He still willingly died on the cross for our sins.

as i type this entry, emotions still overwhelm me even tho easter is over. i nv understood the suffering Jesus had to go thru until i watched the easter drama during svc. i watched it 3 times and each time i watched, i teared. having to witness, wat it was like for Christ to be crucified on the cross, my heart juz ached. i felt so touched… so loved… by this amazing love of God. even the Son of God didnt come to this earth to be served, but to serve the pple. so wat more can we ask for? the Son of God has come to serve us, so why shld we expect others to serve us?

as i watched the drama, every whip, every stripe that Jesus endured was for our sakes. He suffered so much humiliation juz for us. the roman soldiers didnt even let Him off even tho He was crucified on the cross. they stripped Him naked and even His undergarments were removed. they didnt even let the Son of God die in dignity! but no matter how torn His heart was, Jesus still died on the cross for us.

the easter drama really impacted me greatly. it definitely reminded me not to take my salvation lightly becoz my salvation came at a high price. all the more i shldnt be sinning wilfully becoz this is only humiliating Jesus’s death for me even more.

i really do not noe how to express my gratitude towards Jesus… how touched i am for dying on the cross for me… for giving me this chance to live again. thank You Jesus. thank You for being my saviour.. my redeemer… thank You for such perfect love. a love that many in this world is seeking for. (:

and as i saw the sacrificial love of Jesus during the drama, i tot to myself that i really wanna bring pple to Christ. i really want pple to noe that He is the way to eternal life… that He is the reason why we are living today. i really dun want wat Jesus did on the cross to go to waste. He suffered so much for us but yet, pple of this world still think that they can live independently without God. think again, who was the one who gave us life? not ur daddy or ur mummy.. but it was God. He knew us even before we were conceived in our mother’s womb. He loves us so much He died on the cross for us. He knows us so well that He even know how many hairs u have on ur head and He even knows u by name. Ur name is even written on His hand.

isnt it heart wrenching to see ur own creation turn agst u? not only are they against u, u still have to die on the cross for their sins. but Jesus has NEVER complained. He has nv forsaken us and He has nv resented that He had to die for us. wat an amazing God i serve. the easter drama only served to make me fall more in love with God… to cherish this salvation i have and to hold God even more closely than ever to my heart.

but praise the Lord that even tho Jesus died for us, He was risen on the third day!! wat does this mean? it means that Jesus is still alive!! that we serve an ever-living God! that He is the same ytd, today and forevermore!! Hallelujah! He conquered hell for us such that whoever comes to Him shall have victory and eternal life! (: I LOVE MY GOD!! nth beats having Him in my life. wat a wonderful saviour. wat an awesome teacher. wat an amazing God. (:

and i really thank God for the salvation of the 2 juniors that i brought to church! (: one is a house comm nom and another is my yr 1 og member! the vision that i got from God is real! it came to past! that it was all in God’s plan that i became an ogl becoz God had a purpose for me! (:

and it’s been a long time since i last saw the salvation of the pple i hold close to! seeing both of them walk down the aisle, words cant describe how i felt. i almost teared but i controlled. the salvation of a person is the greatest free gift from God! it beats getting some free gift from some lucky draw. it’s a free gift that grants us the ‘passport’ to eternal life with God in heaven!

all i pray now is for their retention and that they will hunger to know God more.. to build up their relationship with God and to be on fire for God! i’m not gonna let them slip away but to watch over them closely and to cont sowing in them.

thank You Lord for everything that You are doing!! You are such an awesome God!! YAY!! I LOVE YOU!! (:

birthday! (:

it was my birthday 3 days ago! and the fact that i’m now of a legal age hasnt exactly sunk into me! haha. didnt really exactly feel like it’s a very big deal. but pple out there are like UR FINALLY 18!!! CONGRATS!! haha. oh wells. i wanna be young! even tho i’m aunty!! haha.

so anyway.. my birthday this was GREAT! WONDERFUL! SUPERB!! i really dunno how to say it.. but i’m juz so touched by the many things that my frens, family and cell gp did for me during my bdae.

it’s not the number of presents or watsoever… but it’s really the tot that counts… the effort they put in and the quality of it! seriously.. i tot that alot of pple forgot my bday!! coz this yr… being the more mature me now (heehee.), i didnt go round ‘publicizing’ that my bday was coming! and well.. i tot that many pple forgot! but no! they didnt! they rmbed!! even some unexpected pple wished me happy birthday!! like wow!! hee. juz a simple wish fm them got me all so happy! hee. (: a simple birthday. but a contented me.

and xinying and sheryl juz rock la!! they wrote me letters!! it’s really the words that got me so happy! xinying got me a cushion and food too! hee. and as i read xinying’s letter, i was really so touched that i nearly teared. but i controlled ok!! i think i shld crown xinying’s letter ‘letter of the yr’! hee. but when JMG celebrated my bday, they gave me this really nice cross (those kind u display on ur table) and a really nice bday cake! but the cross… gosh! it’s so sweet of them! as i read the verse on it.. i really got so emotional i teared! and they captured it on camera!! how embarrassing!!

but really.. thanx alot to the many pple out there which of course includes my beloved cell group E310 and ex-cell gp members and dearest dearest GST!! (: i dun wanna name names.. coz i scared i will miss out pple.. but i juz wanna let u guys noe that i really appreciated every single small gesture! and deep down in my heart, even tho i didnt say, but i was really touched by wat everyone of u did! seriously… it’s the best bday ever in my entire 18 yrs of life! haha. nth beats knowing the fact that so many pple out there care abt me!! YAY!! and i really thank God for placing such wonderful frens like u guys in my life! so yup!! thanx alot everyone!! once again, a simple birthday. but a contented me. it’s the quality of it. not the quantity of presents. THANX! (:

sick.boo.

i feel so deprived of the cyber world these few days! my sister has been hogging on to the com everyday fm morning to night. and it’s starting to get on my nerves.

nvm.. it’s ok. i shall juz overlook that coz at least i still got my mum’s laptop to use! hee. so anyway… i’ve nv seen a doctor so frequently in my entire life! the 3 days that i’m not in sch, i’ve been visiting the doctor on wed, thurs and fri! AHH! i dun like doctors! -pouts-

i was down with very high fever (close to 40 degrees) on wed. i felt so terrible i kept crying. boo. and on top of that, i had throat infection. the doctor said that there’s pus in my throat and that’s why it’s hurting so much. so she gave me medicine and GOSH! 5 types of medicine!! YUCKS!

oh ya! and really thank God for my uncle! he called me at the right time on wed and lucky he was there to send me to the doctor. u nv noe the agony i had to go thru man. i couldnt get out of my bed on wed. the fever was killing me, the throat infection made it worse and i had a splitting headache. really really thank God. if not.. i wouldnt noe how to go to the doctor. thank God He sent my uncle! (:

so the doc gave me 2 days MC on wed. and she said if my throat didnt get any better on thurs, i had to go for a jab. so well… on thurs, when i woke up, my throat felt juz as bad. i had no choice but to go to the doctor. and yes.. the doc gave me a jab on my BUTT!! AHH!! it was pain!! i dun like jabs!! BOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!! come to think of it… how am i going to survive the blood donation. o God.. plse help me. =S and so.. i went to the doctor and she gave me some more medicine. YUCKS.

i felt like puking the whole day ytd. YUCKS. forgive me but i’m in a very whiney mood. hee. but i still went to meet dear max!! my dearest great grand tree and bible study teacher! how can i not go for his farewell dinner before he leaves for the army? I’M GOING TO MISS MAX!!!!!! -sobs-

so anyway… after the dinner, i went home and i felt TERRIBLE. my stomach was churning. queasy. pain. i felt like puking. YUCKS. i juz refused to puke. coz i think if i did, i shall not elaborate the outcome. and i rolled in bed for 2 hrs before i fell aslp. but my stomach was giving me SO MUCH problems!!! i kept waking up! i juz cldnt sleep! =( i tot i had to be admitted to the hospital man. i was so scared. i didnt noe wat to do.

thank God morning came and immediately i went to visit the doctor today. she said it’s the side effects of the antibiotics and i have no choice but to cont taking the antibiotics. BOO BOO BOO. this proves my point why i dun like to see the doc when i sick. BOO.

and to top it off, the doctor examined my throat again and she said if it doesnt get better by sunday (i have to go back on sun for a follow-up on my throat), i’ll have to go to the hospital! and she say i’ll be put on drip and need to go for operation to remove the pus. YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS YUCKS!!!!!!!!! NOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! i dun want that to happen!! i want to celebrate my bday PROPERLY!! NOT IN THE HOSPITAL!! and i want to go for easter!! like wat yanling said, the cell gp needs me during easter!! I DUN WANNA BE IN THE HOSPITAL!!! NO WAY!!!!!!!!!!! BOOOOOOOOOO!!

so i left the doctor’s with even more medicine! and i counted… there’s a total of 8-9 pills for me to take!! YUCKS. i’ve NEVER taken so much medicine at one go before! and neither have i visited the doc’s 3 days in a row!! YUCKS. -pouts-

i feel so weak man. i feel like puking. my stomach doesnt feel right. i lost 2 kg in 3 days. like WOW. i dun feel like eating. i feel more like puking and i have to force myself to eat coz i have to take my medicine AFTER food. YUCKS.

i got loads of school work to catch up on. YUCKS.

AHH! God… help me………………………………. )=

short of time !

blog blog blog! i wanna hurry blog this! i still got loads of homework to do and i have yet to type my spiritual report to jo too!! O God.. help me maximise my time… or else… there’s no sleep for me tonight! boo……….

firstly.. ytd’s healing svc was juz awesome! the healing powers of God juz moved so powerfully in our midst. pple of blurred vision were healed. the deaf could hear. the wheelchair-bound could walk. the hunchbacks could finally stand straight after many yrs. and my gastric pain was healed!! it’s juz totally amazing!

as i witnessed the many pple going up on stage to share their healing testimonies, the love of God juz enveloped me. i juz felt so touched that tears welled up in my eyes. pple who went up on stage to share their testimonies felt the love of God embracing them too that some teared. how touching. how amazing. wat an awesome God i serve.

my heart juz melted because God heals anybody. no matter how big or small, how fat or thin, how black or white u are, God heals. God loves each and every single one. wat a perfect love that many pple out there are searching for.

headed down to the airport for dinner after that. i was so blessed ytd! tube salty aka guan xian blessed me with this unique gel sweet from candy empire and dearest sze en blessed me with popeye meal for dinner ytd!! WHEE!! (: happy happy happy! hee.

had a great time fellowshipping with E310 and E405! PRETTY MICHELLE came too!! YAYNESS!! (: after that, a big group of us took bus 24 home. and on the way home, as i shared my stuff with a lover of God (i’ve typed the nick that u wanted me to name u as! (: ), God spoke thru her, encouraged me thru her. i felt so edified.

and this was wat she told me (not in exact words. but the idea is there.), “as you spoke, Pam, i saw u praying in ur room for the pple that u wanna bring to Christ. i can tell that it is ur heart’s desire to see the salvation of these souls. but i juz feel that God wants me to tell u that He has given you this gift of purity and sincerity to love the pple around you. even if pple dun see wat you did, but God sees. God saw wateva that you have invested and everything has been charged to His account and in due season, you will reap a harvest of souls. God has made you a winsome person and has anointed you as u cont sowing into these pple. the love you have for the pple around u is pure and sincere juz like the love Jesus had for pple. and this is the love that many pple of the world lack today… a sincere and pure love. but you have to be careful becoz you might be easily made used of by pple of the world. so do not lose heart and cont sowing in ur frens! (:

wat can i say? wat a powerful word from God. so edifying. so impactful. so reassuring to know that my Father in heaven has seen everything i did. and that’s the only thing i wanted to know.

throughout the week, as i felt tired of doing good, as i wanted stop giving and blessing the pple ard me, and as i questioned God why am i not reaping that harvest of souls i desire, God faithfully reminds me of this verse “and let us not grow weary while doing good, for in due season, we shall reap if we do not lose heart.” and each time i’m reminded of this verse, i feel encouraged.

and abt 2 days ago, i was juz thinking, why am i doing so many things, like writing notes to my frens, blessing them with stuff etc? besides the fact that i like doing these kind of stuff, but why exactly am i doing this for? and it dawned upon me that maybe i’ve been subconsciously doing all these to plse man… but God has directed me right on track once again! i’m reminded that wateva i do, i do it unto Him. that my main purpose is to plse Him, is to make Him proud of me! it’s juz like on earth, we, as children, wanna do well so that our parents will be proud of us. similarly, i want God to be proud of me! (: when i go up to heaven, i want God to say to me “you made me proud my dear child.” if God ever says this to me, i’ll be so blown away! like WOW!! hee.

and another thing!! i wanna share this testimony of my financial blessings! abt a few weeks ago, during svc, i had slightly more than enough for myself considering that i was in a state of economic crisis and i’ve fulfilled my tithe alr. and so, i decided to give God a good offering and place my faith in Him to believe that He is my provider. i put a $10 note in the offering envelope and in my mind, i told God “God, i’m putting my faith and trust in u and giving u this offering. plse give me the financial blessings that i hope to get.” and so, i sealed the envelope and gave my offering.

when i went home, i was hoping to see my allowance on the table. but sadly, it wasnt. i asked “God… where is the money i need?” and juz at that moment, my dad walked into my room with my allowance and a short note. he wrote that he has decided to increase my allowance! like WOW!! PTL!! He’s ever so faithful and juz as He has promised in His word, He will bless us exceedingly abundantly! i was always doubtful abt my financial blessings but God has shown me that He is faithful! YAY!! (:

yup! so anyway… cell group today was good! combined cg meeting with E405! YAYNESS!! ancestor led us in the sharing of testimonies! heehee. and jenn shared the offering msg!! both of them were good i must say! -thumbs up- hee. (:

and owner finally gave me the long overdued essay that she owes me!! heehee. yay!! i was so happy to receive her essay to me! tho it was still quite short in my opinion, but i feel happy, blessed and contented enough to be able to receive her essay! hee. I LOVE OWNER TO BITS AND PIECES AND MOLECULES AND ATOMS!! (: she rock my world. the greatest blessing God has ever given to me! WHEE!! i nearly teared as i read her essay! haha. and to owner… i’m gonna treat that essay like gold! hee. thank you! (:

so yup! that’s abt it! i thank God for everything! i really feel so good! so refreshed and renewed in the spirit! I LOVE MY GOD!! (: i’m falling more in love with Him once again…. thank You Lord! no matter wat oppositions or obstacles i may face, O Lord, i noe that You will always be there for me. I LOVE YOU! (:

M&M’s ! (:

yay!! my com’s finally back up!! PTL!! WHEE!! (: can finally update my blog! but sorry to everyone out there… even tho my com’s back, i may not be able to update so regularly as of yet becoz i need to catch up on my school work! until my school work’s back on track, i’ll be able to update more frequently ya? hee.

anyway… ignore the previous entry. i was juz feeling down. hee. but thanks to ancestor! after toking to him, i felt much better! so yea! (:

and as u can see… my entry’s title is M&M’s! not that m&m chocolates and neither is it markie and melly… but it’s abt MULTIPLICATION and MUSICFEST! ok. i noe it’s lame. haha. =P

so yes.. multiplication took place last sunday. cell was great! amazing! wonderful! felt so renewed.. so refreshed in the presence of God. and as i worshipped Him, God gave me an image. i saw a child hugging a parent and somehow i juz knew it (dun ask me why.. but i juz noe..) that the child was me and the parent was my Daddy God! it juz felt so wonderful being able to feel God’s love for me once again! i teared as God’s love embraced me. THANK YOU ABBA FATHER! I LOVE YOU! (:

after which came the time for multiplication… as we shared with each other our final words and sang the song ‘we’re a family that loves’, i juz cried and broke down. having to leave the other half of the cell group was indeed saddening for me. i nv want to leave them. esp when 4 out of 5 (ie mel, gid, jenn, max and yanling) that i really hold close to my heart didnt end up in the same cell as me. isit good or isit bad?

as i gave them my last hug, tears juz started rolling down my cheeks. no more bs with max… no more ancestor to call me you zi… no more jenn to make fun of me or call me pomelo… no more owner during sats and suns (at least i still see her during the weekdays tho)… i’ll really miss them dearly!

and so… E310 and a new cell E405 was born! and i guess i cried so much that i got alot of pple worried! haha. but i’m ok now la. after miss yanling xiao jie toked to me that sunday night, i feel much better… much much better.

now that i’m in the new E310, it’s time for all of us to work tgt to bring this new E310 up! i carry that burden to see this new cell group growing.. not only in terms of quantity but in quality as well! really hope to see everyone growing tgt! it’s a new beginning. a new creation. a new cell group. i’m definitely looking forward to this new journey with E310!

btw.. these are the E310 members… yanling, deora, guanxian, deorine, emily, vanessa, terence, terrence, alex, mark, yuxuan, briony, weixin, samantha, grace, zhiyong and me! yup! that’s the new E310! (:

now.. on to the next M.. MUSICFEST!! musicfest ytd was great as usual! i mean… since when will any vj event not end on a high note? haha. i went with the bballers! hee. and i had a great time!! was sitting in btwn xinying and lu! both of them keep bullying and making fun of me la! haha. but it was fun nevertheless! and i saw MICHELLE!! PRETTY MICHELLE!! i super miss her la!

specially to michelle : I MISS YOU! and UR STILL AS PRETTY AS EVER!! -huggs-

afta musicfest, i went home with xy and went for super with my family!! great great great family bonding! hee. (:

so yup! things are picking up. things are looking good. i’m bringing xy to church today! WHEE! common test results ADEO! got improvement la. hee. my school work need to be back on track tho.

okok.. that’s abt it! i need to sign off now! (: