it’s OFFICIALLY OVER !! (:

YAYNESS!! 3 CHEERS TO EVERYONE FOR SURVIVING THRU COMMON TESTS!! hee. i’m so happy!! (((((((((: like really really happy!!

went to meet mel after physics paper and chiong straight down to emily’s place! emily whipped up a really sumptous dinner, she totally blew jenn, mel and i off! i nv expected her to be quite a good cook eh. surprisingly. haha. and we went nanny mcphee!! it was such a cute movie!! i was totally engrossed in it! i mean.. tho its really purely fiction and nothing else, but i like!! this kind of movies are nice!! haha. and i agree with emily.. i can watch it over and over again without getting bored! just like how i watched parent trap 10 times!! haha. and basically, we juz slacked in emily’s room for the rest of the time! i’m really gonna miss emily so much when she’s gone!! boohoohoo. ):

and looks like my days are fully packed! haha. yay! (: but hopefully my parents will allow me to go out!

fri – bible study. dinner with yen mei.
sat – church. badminton bbq. (still deciding if i shld go…)
sun – house comm outing!! (YAYNESS!! I MISS THESE PPLE ALOT ALOT!!)
mon – outing with xiaohong and gang.

and i still got 3 more outings that are yet to be confirmed! even tho it’s juz the common tests that are over, but it feels like as tho i’ve conquered the A levels! i dun rmb having so many outings last yr! haha.

oh God… plse help me thru during the A level period. You gave me a vision and i noe that it will come to pass. i put all my trust in You.. knowing that You will see me thru. (:

it’s going to be OVER!! :D

YES YES YES!! 8 more hours and YES!! I’M FREE!!!!!!!!!!! WOOHOO!!!!! the adrenaline level in me is HIGH!!! YAY!!! i cant wait for common tests to be over!! and then, it’s PLAY!!! WHEE!!! I WANNA GO SHOPPING!! i’m DEPRIVED of it!! but i got no money! SAD!

and YAY!! i feel loved by all the tags!! heehee. (:

and it’s physics paper today! LOTS AND LOTS of formulae to memorise! i really need to pray that God will expand the capacity of my brain! sometimes i think my brain is too small to contain so much info and that’s why i keep forgetting stuff! GRR…

God!! give me a bigger brain!

but sometimes, i think my brain is a wonder brain! it’s small yet it can rmb stuff! haha. okies. that was really random. oh wells.

oh yes! and once physics paper is over, i wanna have a good rest and SLEEP till the cows come home. i’ve been working hard and i deserve a break! hee. (((:

i’ve got some many things i wanna do when common tests are over! but sadly, how i wish that it was the A levels that are over! i shall give myself a 1 week break! haha. YAYNESS!!

i wanna watch LOTS of tv too!! anyone got nice vcds or dvds to lend me?? (((: i wanna watch some korean or taiwan drama seriel too!! someone intro some to me!!!

and i’m going to dearest EMILY’s house later!! jen and owner will be there!! WHEE!! I CANT WAIT!! WAHAHHAH. ((:

fri is BS DAY and i’m going out with yen mei too!! YAY!! i’m starting FT1 with sister jo this week!! i’m SO EXCITED!! and i cant wait to go to church this sat! neither can i wait for cell group meeting this sun too!! and mon is outing day with xiaohong, pei, ra and gang! (:

ADE, SHU MIN and HUILIN!! HELLO!?!?! when are we ever going to meet up?? after cts k!! celebrate SOMEONE’s bday oso!! hee. (:

JOCEYLN SEOW!! aka mad woman!! rmb our date k!! haha.

WAH!! so many things to look forward to!! God is good all the time! and all the time God is good!! (:

anyway.. who wants to come to my house to play??! we could play pool and sing KTV in the entertainment room and play tennis etc!! basically, juz SLACK!! ahahahah. (:

oh ya! another thing! i cant wait to start giving yen mei bs!! WHEE!! SO EXCITING!!! ((((:

for now, i have to contain my excitement and go back to my physics notes. if only notes could tok and entertain, studying will DEFINITELY be much more interesting and fun! haha.

random tots !

i just realised that my button for tagging reads ‘I LOVE PAM!’ really forgot abt it! which means, each time pple tag, it’s their confession of their love for me!! WHEE!! heehee. so pple!! TAG MORE TAG MORE TAG MORE!! make me feel loved lehz!! haha.

alrights. so common tests have started today! good? or bad? HA! i really dunno eh. dun wanna pin my hopes too high. if not if i do badly, i’ll be upset! wateva it is, i juz hope for the best!

God will see me thru!

and thanx everyone for ur msgs! it’s really encouraging! keep praying me k! and pray for mel, guan, fen, samuel, teik kheng, heri, mavis, george and weixin’s exams too!! sorry if i missed anyone out! didnt mean to!

so for now.. it’s back to maths! it will really be by God’s grace if i’m able to survive thru my maths paper tmr. all the best to me!

will try to update and upload pictures soon! after the cts la! (:

i’m letting go. (:

alrights! i’ve decided to delete the previous entry!
why?
for a very simple reason, i do not want to leave unhappy memories on my blog! and besides, i dun want to sow that seed of hatred and unforgiveness in me! only the devil will be happy. BOO!!!!! DEVIL I BIND U IN THE NAME OF JESUS!!
so yup!
forgiven and forgotten!
i’m justified before God! (:

i pray that i’ll be more forgiving towards u.
and i pray that God will help u.
everything’s juz between u and God now.
i’m not going to interfere.
i’ll juz keep my mouth close. =X

SEOUL GARDEN !

went to seoul garden with xiaohong, pei and ra!! i ate so much i felt like puking after that!! but it was fun eating and catching up with them!! hee. (: and we made this new dish! dao gay with egg and meat!! NICE!!!! u guys muz try it!

and i realised sth… ra CAN cook! didnt noe that! haha. think she can start her own cooking show alr… like the ‘yan can cook’ show! hahah.

and i’m toking to ra online now. and this was wat she said..
CLARA. says:
but youre one of the nicest things that happened to me this 1 and a half years!

i seriously dunno wat to say! i was touched beyond words i felt like crying! and that silly gal tot that i will feel like puking since i’m like so full now! haha.

but all i can say is tat its really funny how things turned out! from a not-so-pleasant incident, sth good turned out of it! it made me realise how much the 3 of them (PEI, XIAOHONG, RA) mean to me!

all these while i tot that they were juz ordinary frens to me… but nv did i realise that actually deep down inside, they mattered to me! but now i noe! and i thank God for the 3 of them! i thank God for restoring this frenship i have with them! (:

and even tho i’ve nv said this before…
but to the 3 of u, I LOVE U GUYS ALOT! thanx for showing to me that u guys are real and genuine pple! that guys can be trusted and counted on! thanx so much for everything! I REALLY LOVE ALL OF U!! (: -huggs-

ytd was GOOD! -thumbs up- (:

haha. ytd was a wonderful day!
i’ve forgiven. and i’ve forgotten. let bygones be bygones. (:

it was my MUMMY’S BIRTHDAY YTD!!!!!!!!! tho i noe she will nv read this… i still wanna shout HAPPY BIRTHDAY MUM!!! (: i hope u enjoyed urself at the surprise birthday party we threw for u ytd! love ya! -huggs-

brother aldwin led us for cell group meeting ytd. and i muz say that the msg that was preached really came at the right time. a msg on how to be a true fren and abt fellowship too! after the cell group meeting, ALL of us stayed back to fellowship with each other and to prepare for the surprise party we’ve planned for my mum!

THANKS ALOT E310!! the party wouldnt have been a success without u guys! I LOVE ALL OF U! (:

ytd’s party was not only a success in celebrating my mum’s birthday. but it was also a very good time of fellowship with each other! i was really happy and delighted that so many of the members made that effort to stay back to fellowship. in fact, majority stayed until past 9!! (:

and i was even happier when grace, who had to rush off to the airport becoz she was going to russia, tried to stay as long as she cld so that she cld spend some time with us! on top of that, our DEAREST EMILY and SHANE stayed with us until 630 pm! (: YAY!!

all i can say is that i was really happy ytd! i must say that everything ended off with a BANG! it was really heartwarming seeing how all of us were juz enjoying each other’s company! and even tho i did not express it much, but deep down inside, i was really touched by the gestures of the members! how they actively served my parents and their frens food when they came… how they were so spontaneous and loud in singing the birthday song… and how enthu they were in hyping up the whole atmosphere!

on top of that, deep down inside, i saw that the members have bonded. that bond is building… from rather quiet fellowships… to a really noisy one like ytd! we juz enjoyed each other’s company.. playing pool and singing kbox!! the time spent tgt was great!

thank God for such a wonderful fellowship! (:

do you exactly think i like ___ with u?
it takes up much of my ____ and ____.

maybe we shld juz ___ everything to the bear ____.
so that maybe we can avoid all ___.

for now.. i shall rest my case and not bother.

give me a break before i ___ ____ ___ ___.
honestly, i might.

i dun even noe if it’s all worth it.
i knew that was coming.
i tried to be prepared for it.
but looks like i’ve failed.
terribly.

why? why? why?
this has ___ my mood.
totally.

i did it voluntarily.
out of a willing heart.
i guess i juz didnt pre-empt the outcome.
that i was the MOST SUSCEPTIBLE to getting ___ ___.

and now i qns myself.
is it all worth it?

my flesh says it’s not.
the devil says it’s not.

but my spirit shall overcome the devil.
and my spirit shall say IT IS.

becoz i do it unto God.
and NOT TO PLSE MEN.

for that… i shall tolerate.
and for that too… i shall FORGIVE.

it’s hard to untangle this knot..
seriously… i need to pray to be more forgiving.

I LOVE MY TUDI!! (:

AH!! it’s been a long time since i last toked to my dearest weixin! as in like having a proper chat with her.. and finally.. today i decided to put everything away and tok to her online… it was juz as good as chatting on the phone…

and this was the part of the convo that really touched me.. (:

weix-* says:
mmmms, you rock man shifu
weix-* says:
but lemme tell you sth kays
weix-* says:
no matter what
weix-* says:
i won’t backslide (: (: this i promise you
weix-* says:
AND AND…
weix-* says:
you’ll always be my bestest bestest bestest shifu!

u noe.. once in a while.. u juz wanna hear such words coming from pple to noe that u still mean alot to them even though we are all too busy and caught up in our lives… (:

thanx alot darling!! I LOVE YOU!! (:

one whole entry dedicated juz for u! (:

thumbs up! (:

AHH!! pei pei started studying alr!! which means… there goes my treat! i made a bet with her that if she doesnt start studying, she’ll have to treat me to lunch! but ok la.. no treat means it’s a good thing coz it means that she’s studying alr!! THUMBS UP!! haha. (:

and today is peipei’s birthday!!
HAPPY 18TH BIRTHDAY!!!!!!!!!!!! u’ve finally turned legal!!!! and u can finally go clubbing w/o having to borrow id!! ahaha. so anyway.. juz wanna say that u’ve been a great fren to me!! really love u alot alot!! rock on my dear!! -huggs- anyway.. is lunch on sat still on?? (:

today has been a really productive day!! WHEE!! i did 2 chapts of chem and 1 chapt of physics!! which includes re-doing the tutorial qns too!! THUMBS UP!! (:

and i’m finally catching up with my schedule!! THUMBS UP!! (:

YAY!! today is a wonderful day!! THUMBS UP!! (:

for now… i’m going to bathe, then conference call with yl, mr salty and deorine, after which i’ll call sam (if there is time), do qt and do another 2-3 hrs of studying! and then, off to bed!!

it’s gonna be another GREAT DAY tmr!! THUMBS UP!! (:

and RONG has finally switched on her studying engine!! she finally found her key!! so happy for her!! THUMBS UP girl!! (:

but i wonder how owner’s doing with her studies… and that mr salty too… hmm.. hopefully it’s another 2 THUMBS UP to the both of them!! (:

EMERGE-D

looks like emerge came to an end ytd!! SAD!! =( how i wish it was longer!! i miss queuing up for emerge… i miss making fun of mr salty… i miss eating all the hotdog waffles… i miss taking photos in church… but above all… i miss the presence of God!

emerge has indeed been a great experience for me! i’ve grown spiritually and i’ve EMERGED! and i believe that my breakthru came. i’m once again renewed and refreshed! thank You Lord! (:

so many things happened at emerge! and it’s really the most exciting event ever! (: the Lord spoke to me… asking me to go back to Him… to spend more time with Him… tarrying in His presence… and i dunno why.. but this time it hit me really hard that spending time with God is my priority.

i did my qt juz now and God spoke… He gave me a verse… encouraged me to put my trust in Him that i will be able to do well in my studies… that i shall be the head and not the tail.. above and not beneath. and as i spend time with Him, God is going to reward me with the good grades that my heart longs for. i was really touched.

and yes Lord… i will abide in You… trusting You in all my small little ways.

and God brought me back to my first love for Him on the fourth session at emerge! as i kneeled down and worshipped Him… images of how i first came to Him during CHC’s 16th anniversary celebration flashed across… tears juz flowed freely and i felt my love for God juz renewed again! it was great! falling in love with God all over again is juz AWESOME! (:

i juz read george’s blog. i totally agree with him that tarrying in God’s presence is indeed addictive! it juz feels so good being in God’s presence!

and this is to miss peipei! I MISS YOU TOO!! even tho i do not really noe wat happened… but i definitely do hope that ur feeling alright! and if u ever need a listening ear, i promise that i’ll lend u mine! (: take care okies? -huggs-

[edit] oh ya! and xiaohong’s back from australia too! YAY!! called him up ytd! hopefully he had a good rest!! (: