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i happened to chance upon heong yee’s blog today… and i feel so happy for her! coz this is wat she wrote in one of her entries…
Amazing, how christianity has changed my life.
from the girl with attitude problem to who i am today, all grace goes to Him.
you may be wondering why i’m so into this christian life as compared to the past. i’ve enough of the aimless life i have led. it has been Him who picked me up when i fall, i look to Him when i need someone to hear me out when nobody does. during the darkest moment of my life, He came and pull me out of it. regardless of the friends i mixed with, He has a way to shield me from the negative influence. surprised at how i also managed to pull through any problems. that’s because He has walk by my side. my life is Yours God. thank You.
another wonderful testimony of wat God has done in pple’s lives… it really feels so good when i see pple building their lives on God and growing in their walk with God!
anyone who wants their lives TRANSFORMED, u can always contact me! (:
it’s not just a religion my dear frens… it’s abt building a RELATIONSHIP with God… ((((: a WONDERFUL RELATIONSHIP… with love, peace, hope and joy that is so true and so pure that i noe YOU have been longing for… ((((((((((((:
it’s been a really long time since i last blogged. GP’s gonna start in another week’s time. i really do not noe how i’m feeling abt the upcoming A level examinations. i do not noe if i have prepared and studied enough to be equipped with the adequate knowledge needed to ans the qns during exams.
i juz pray and really really pray agst every fear of examinations… every blackout that i face during exams.
i realised that i do noe how to do the qns when i study but during exams, i get all stressed up and panicky that my mind goes blank and most of the knowledge that i have stored up seem to immediately run away! like ok…. i really do not want that to happen!
many things have been happening. i admit that i’m tired… having to struggle with managing my time for studying, emotionally, family etc… so many many things.. but like wat God told me when i prayed and asked Him why muz everything juz happen at the same time…
and He answered… “so that u’ll be tested and ur capacity stretched… so that u will be prepared for the calling that i have for you…” it’s a preparation for my destiny…
fix my eyes on Jesus… not on my circumstances…. thanx God i have Him during my A levels… i wouldnt noe how to survive without Him…
and i think God has been speaking to me abt sth… but i do not noe if it was really God who spoke to me… or was it juz my own thinking?
i’m tired. i really am. i’m really really very tired alright. i dun like it when u keep qnsing.. keep asking. and even if i voiced my opinions, u still wanted it to be done ur way. i said no, but u still insist on it being a yes. then wat’s the point of asking?
im really tired. i dunno wat’s wrong with me. juz let me rot and extinct. if u really cant tolerate me, im really sorry. i really dunno anything at all. juz leave me alone.
i dunno i dunno i dunno. i think i juz refuse to think. i’m tired. lack of sleep and all.
all i want is God. all i want is Him. nothing else in this world matters. really.. nth else at all…
to you, you and you.
plse study. A levels is in 27 days time. im worried for you guys and i really want all of u to do well. i noe u guys can do well and excel. but plse study. i dunno how to bring myself to tell u guys to study. so i guess this is the only way.
love,
pam
seriously… it’s a BIG BIG BIG WATEVA!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! *how i wish this font can be much bigger*
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i feel like shouting! i really wanna shout!
AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
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THE END
when i was praying abt 2 days ago, i was worshipping God and singing the song ‘Glory Shines’… as i sang that song, i was juz telling God that i really wanna carry His glory wherever i go, and to shine for Him.
this was when God spoke to me… He told me that glory is light. and He reminded me of wat pst said during svc last week that in times of darkness, that’s when the light of Christ will shine the brightest. God oso reminded me of the verse ‘you are the light of the world, a city that is set on the hill cannot be hidden’… and God spoke again… He told me that i am going to be this light. i am going to shine for Him… that when pple are facing their darkest moments, i will be that light that will shine for Him! i was like WOW!!!
it was really another encounter with God! i am still juz too blown away by wat God has spoken to me abt… (:
i got back my prelim results and well… it was really disappointing. but i guess i expected it becoz the day before i got back my prelim results, God told me that wateva happens tmr (which is the day i got my results), juz cont trusting in Him.
when i got my maths paper back in the morning, and i got a D for it, i understood wat God meant. i was expecting a B or a C coz i tot the paper was quite ok. and subsequently, when i got my physics, GP and chem papers back, i knew that i juz had to trust in Him.
but i guess noeing beforehand that i wldnt do very well helped me in the sense that i didnt break down and cry as badly as i tot i would. but then again, even tho God did prepare me beforehand, i still cried. coz it’s really difficult to control and hold back. having worked so hard, and only to get such terrible results, i was devasted. i admit i was. how on earth am i ever going to sit for my A’s?
but like wat God told me, trust in Him. and yes, i will trust in Him. i believe that wat God has given to me, it will not be taken away. i will only hear the voice of faith and only hear from the voice of God. i shall not entertain and give the attention that the other inner voices are seeking for.
but God is so good all the time. having not done so well, i felt that God has spoken to me in many many ways.. telling me to keep my faith there and cont trusting in Him. first it was guan who shared with me the song I Believe… a really very inspiring song. then it was during bible study on fri where i learnt abt the 7 different kinds of faith. and then it was during svc when pst preached abt visions and dreams and abt having faith in God. and juz a while ago, after i went swimming, while i was bathing, i felt prompted to sing the song ‘God will make a way’… as i sang, the lyrics hit me hard, the presence of God juz came. YES! God will make a way when there seems to be no way… He works in ways we cannot see… He will make a way for me…
and yes! i will have faith in God. He spoke that rhema word to me during the june holidays… and wat He has given to me shall not be taken away by the devil! (:
Father… i surrender everything into Your hands… noeing that Your thoughts, Your ways and Your plans for me are higher than mine… wateva it is, i still wanna give u all the praise, glory and honour for the results that i have gotten… i love You my dearest Daddy… ((((:
and thank you yanling, trina and mel for accompanying me to east coast that day. it definitely did help me to san san xin that day! esp to yanling! thanx gal! u travelled all the way from amk and skipped school juz for me! i’m really touched! (: and then u got fever! nv tell me! muz take care!!! love ya!!
thanx tudi! the talk i had with u that night at the swimming pool was juz wonderful! i love the cool and silent night! (:
thanx jenn, fen and joce for encouraging me and telling me to stay strong!
thanx ancestor and jo for the care and concern u all showed when u all asked for my results!
thanx sam, ra, xiaohong, pei and fishball for encouraging me and juz being there for me that day! i really felt so loved by u guys! thanx a million my dears! and yes! we will fight! (:
thanx guan for sharing with me that inspiring song! i havent saw the video yet! ):
thanx xinying, elica, denise and mark for juz toking to me and cheering me up that day! all the best for ur promos!! jia you k!! (:
and of course… thanx pauline for the encouragement u gave me on fri night! thanx for praying for me too! i really appreciate everything that u have done! (:
His grace is more than sufficient for me… and His strength is made perfect in my weakness…. Lord… i will trust in You… (:
