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busy busy busy!
toking to jenn online now! nv toked to her abt guys before. haha! but it’s funny talking abt guys to jenn! heehee. =P
i picked up my guitar during my quiet time and played the song “once i have turn my face from thee”. a song which i totally fell in love with when pst sang it last week.
the lyrics go..
once i have turn my face from thee
yet You sought me and You cleansed me
made me whole again
Jesus my Saviour
my beloved and friend
Your praises i bring
from my heart i sing
CHORUS
draw me, O draw me away
Messiah today
to Your presence to stay
O Jesus now change me
and mould me that i can be
evermore true to thee
You are the shepherd of my heart
You have brought me to Your chamber
my Master and King
You light up my darkness
and gave me Your word
that You’ll never forsake me
nor no ever will leave me
as i sang that song, those 3 lines in orange hit me real hard. at such time as this, when i feel like as tho i’m all alone fighting this out… when i feel like giving up… when so many things have happened… when i feel that God isnt there… this song directed me back once again.
God has NEVER given up on me. God has NEVER left me. even if i cant feel His presence, His word alone is always always there. no matter how unfaithful i may have been, how terrible i may have been, but God assured me that He has never left me.
sometimes, it’s really up to us to seek Him.. to press in.. to plug into God. the Holy Spirit has always been with me. and no matter how much wrong i have done, God assured me of His love… God assured me that He has not given up on me even when i feel like giving up on myself.
i was really touched… it has been a while since God spoke to me.. and yes, thank God for that word.
i really love that song coz the words are so meaningful!
on a side note, i realised that if a person plays the guitar becoz he really has the passion for it and he plays it out of a sincere heart, NOT becoz for the reason of wanting to show off, no matter how ‘beginner’ ur guitar skills may be, the song will still sound nice. and if the person is playing a church song, the presence of God will come.. becoz the song is played out of a heart of worship. (:
and i also realised that God deals with different pple differently. to the insecure, He constantly reassures them. to the stubborn, He ‘whacks’ them. to the mouldable, He constantly challenges them. and the list just goes on. i really didnt realise this.. coz i always tend to wonder.. why does God tell me this but i never seem to get to hear what He told someone else. haha. oh wells. (:
alright! pamela is back from camp! hee. first, let me declare, i didnt sleep at all during the camp!! i stayed awake for 36 hours and i’m so proud of myself!! haha. 
but i think becoz i didnt sleep at all, i totally went super HIGH on tuesday! haha.
the camp was fun i would say. but it was really a pity that it’s such a short camp! how i wished it could be longer! (:
nevertheless, i still made many good friends! got to noe more pple!
and thru the camp, i found so many guitar pros!! and i got a new guitar teacher too!!! he’s SUPER pro la!!! YAYYY!!! SO HAPPY!!!
and my partner for fright night, lionel, was really nice too.. even tho in the end i backed out and didnt go for the fright night. i think i’m really timid! sheesh! i didnt go for the fright night but i still cried! and i heard it wasnt scary at all. -_-”
but peiyun was really encouraging and sweet on the last day of the camp.. she said to me that tho pple may think i’m timid, but that doesnt mean i’m no good.. everyone just have different strengths in different areas. and i was really touched!
ok la.. this is a really random post. will go more into details another time and will upload the photos soon. haha.
alright! the long awaited mission trip photos are finally here! WHEE!!! thank you patrick! let the pictures do most of the talking today! (:
DAY ONE
we arrived at malang in the late afternoon and got our itinery.
me: “God, use me in any way You can during this trip. let me do the things that i’ll never get to do in spore. God, i pray that i’ll be given the opportunity to preach. i want to make an impact in Malang for You during this one week.”
prepared for cg in the evening. i led ice breakers! (:
sharing my testimony
janice preaching
zhenghao sharing offering msg
dinner time at this place!
a happy time of fellowship (:
janice asked me that night: “pam, do u wanna preach at tmr’s youth cell group?”
me: “YES!” (even tho i really had no idea wat i wanted to preach)
God spoke before i slept: “preach on dreams”
me: “ok. but God… on wat aspect of dreams?”
God didnt reply.
so i just went to sleep feeling excited yet apprehensive.
DAY TWO
woke up.
me: “so God, what aspect of dreams?”
God: “being bold for you dreams”
me: “WOW! thank You God! i wanna make an impact for You!”
windra explaining ice breaker
forfeit forfeit forfeit! =P
teaching a new worship song “sanctuary”
me: “how many of you are still excited in this place?!” i was just as excited (tho a little nervous) as all of them!
preaching! (i was really convicted by my own msg!)
ministry time!
i remembered tearing in the presence of God as God reminded me of the big dreams that i have for Him… He brought me back to the time when i took that step of faith to boldly declare and recognise that these are the hidden dreams that i always had for God.. when i tot it was impossible for me to accomplish the dreams i had becoz i didnt think i was good enough, God came true for me.. indeed, God uses the willing and yielded vessels..
making a declaration of faith to boldly chase after our dreams! (:
zhenghao praying for the offering
L to R: windra, astrid, me, zhenghao
after the meeting..
a young boy came to me and said: “i was very impacted by ur msg”
astrid said: “i almost gave up on my dream of starting my own business, but today, God revived my dream thru ur msg”
youth pastor said: “you preached excellent!”
went back home…
one of the youths msged windra: “i wanted to pursue a medical doctorate degree but i almost gave up on this dream becoz it was getting too tough. today, i was very ministered during the cell group meeting.”
me: “thank You” (:
DAY THREE
outside solargracia – one of the christian radio stations in malang
janice and the DJ
janice preaching her 5-sermon marathon with andry interpreting
patrick sharing his salvation testimony
in the evening…
zhenghao and i headed down to Bethany Church with windra for the youth P&W team cell group meeting..
inside the SUPER BEAUTIFUL main auditorium
ice breaker game – the animal concentration game
forfeit – write michael’s name with ur butt! =P
cell group meeting started with worship
praise!
zhenghao preaching – renewing ur love for the lost
ministry time
i shared offering msg during this cell group meeting and astrid interpreted for me. she’s really good! (:
group pictures after cell group!
dinner time… *yumyum* i was STARVING…
it’s some super duper nice mee!!
group picture before eating. the waitress was shocked when zhenghao asked her to join us in the picture! haha.
DAY FOUR
morning…
went shopping for a while.
came home to prepare for the crusade in the village
evening…
when we reached the village, we were caught off guard by the number of kids. i had to lead a mini children church instead of sharing my testimony with the adults. i was much more apprehensive as compared to the day when i preached. i had no materials, nothing.
me: “God, help me.”
during worship, God spoke: “share a short msg with the kids on God’s love”
i have to say that it’s really all divine becoz before i went for the trip, huiling (a children church worker) shared with me abt how she shared her msg on God’s love with the kids! (:
janice loves this small kid! (:
zhenghao sharing offering msg
janice preaching…
…sowing God’s word on good ground (:
altar call (almost everyone came forward from what i heard)
power of God was moving strongly in the meeting
a refreshing touch from heaven
praying for the sick
in the meantime, i was with the kids…. (:
having some fun! (:
praying for the kids.
there was a strong presence of God and His love saturated that place. i was very touched, i started tearing while praying for the kids.
these kids are on fire for God. they love God. they excitedly share their testimonies. they wanna shine for God. but out of these kids, i saw 3 boys who are really passionate abt the things of God. i saw a different spirit in them. i just knew that there was sth different abt them.
God: “they will grow up to do great things for me”
one of them plays the guitar. it’s really not abt how good u are at playing the guitar. but when u play the guitar out of a sincere heart… out of a heart of worship, the presence of God comes. that was wat happened when that young boy played the guitar while i was praying for the kids. (:
she’s very cute! (:
group photo with the villagers
me: “kids are amazing. thank You Lord. i never tot i would be able to minister to the kids. but God, You are never too late, never too early, always right on time. i did it. thank You.” (:
DAY FIVE
morning…
a mini service with around 50 university students
the place
before the svc, windra was still looking thru the sermon to interprete. he was rather nervous. hee.
musicians and dancers praying before the svc started
praise
sharing my salvation testimony. it’s very different sharing testimony at the pulpit.
zhenghao preaching – stepping out!
touched by the strong presence of God
altar call – more than 80% responded (:
praying for the students
falling under the power of God. oh yes! one of the girls got holy laughter!
ministered
lunch time…
group photo! (:
our favourite – BLACK SOUP! (:
in the evening, janice and patrick went for the adult svc tgt with andry and yuli..
worship
praise
patrick sharing his testimony
janice preaching – i think it was on being hungry for the things of God
we want more of You and less of us…
zhenghao and i went off for a youth cell group meeting tgt with windra and hendra..
i got sabo-ed during the games AGAIN and i had to dance to this indonesian song. haha.
all praises and glory and honour to God!
my 2nd sermon – building up ur self esteem – when i shared on how i stepped out of my low self esteem in the past, i nearly teared because i was reminded of God’s goodness… how He picked me up when i fell so many times..
windra is a good interpreter (:
listening attentively.. hungry for the word of God…
ministry time.
even before i finished preaching, this girl started tearing non-stop. i was really touched by the presence of God. during ministry time, i gave an altar call. more than 80% of the youths responded. before i went round to lay hands and pray for them, many of the youths were alr so touched by God’s presence that they started tearing. God’s love was so strong too that i could sense broken hearts being restored… pple’s self esteem being restored as well…
these youths are different from the other youths from previous meetings that we went for. they were more hungry than the rest, more responsive… they were just different. during that meeting, God was also restoring their dreams. i know and i could sense that many of them are going to do great things for God!
DAY SIX
did a little shopping in the morning..
went home to prepare for the Bethany Youth Service..
when we arrived, the church was screening singapore EMERGE 2006 video to the youths! that’s pastor tan on the screen! (:
praise
the youths started dancing according to the lyrics of one of the praise song
worship
introducing us to the youths
zhenghao sharing his financial testimony
janice preaching – turning dreams into reality
listening to the word of God..
taking down notes
ministry time
sharing my offering msg. standing at the pulpit to share an offering msg is really different from sharing an offering msg in cell group! i was really quite nervous.
hendra and i after svc
group photo!
we went to pastor henry’s (youth pastor) restaurant for dinner! the food was good! it was our last night and we wont be seeing windra, hendra and pastor henry anymore as we were heading to dampit that night for a svc in the morning.
farewell guys!
we headed down to yuli’s house at dampit tgt with keke…
at yuli’s house, we woke andry up coz we reached late! toked to andry while showing him my offering msg and testimony for the youth meeting the next day.
LAST DAY ):
this is wat dampit looks like at 6am!
nice padi fields outside the church we went to
dancers, musicians, worship leaders
worship
zhenghao sharing offering msg
patrick sharing his salvation testimony
janice preaching
responding to the altar call
praying for the people
after the svc…
a short fellowship cum breakfast with the pastor there
group photo after the svc!
2nd breakfast of the day, on the way back to malang, at a roadside stall selling traditional indo food. YUMMY!
stop! i havent finished chewing my food!
now, that’s better… hee.
back in malang…
entrance to the youth meeting at this cafe
worship
i shared my financial testimony
listening to the preaching of the word
zhenghao preaching
after the meeting, we went to yuli’s house in malang for lunch
look wat we had for lunch! janice’s favourite – KFC!! see her smiling so widely? hee.
andry saying grace
group photo before we attack the food!
i was too full to eat anymore so i only ate a small drumstick and the rest of the time, i was busy snapping photos of pple eating.. =P
know wat is this? gado gado!
yuli’s parents
zhenghao eats alot of rice!
the beautiful pond outside yuli’s backyard
big and well-fed fish
nice greenery at yuli’s place
some pictures of the beautiful house (it’s a very big piece of land)…
janice: i have fought the good fight of faith!
keke and me!
back in cipto, pastor roy was waiting for us…
one last group photo tgt! photographer – andry (:
andry and me! he likes to call me xiao jie jie! =P
zhenghao and the siblings – yuli and andry
we got into the car even tho we very much didnt want to leave. andry said something really encouraging to me before we drove to the airport in surabaya.
at the airport..
yuli was so sweet! she and keke drove down to surabaya (a 2hr drive) just to send us off! we felt very honoured. (:
janice, yuli, keke
on the plane back,
me: God, i really want to come back to malang again
the memories will always stay… (:
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dear God..
plse help me to do the things which i cannot do. wateva that i can do, plse help me to do it the best unto You. and wateva i cannot do, plse help me. as i do my best, God, plse help me to do the rest…
in Jesus name i pray,
amen.
i just found out that church usually doesnt have any missions going on in december and january!! SO SAD!! ):
so… i’ll only see malang again either in sept for yuli’s wedding or if not, i’ll have to wait till next yr june! ):
when i go back to malang, i wanna meet up with cynthia! i think both of us can click! YAYY!!
i just realised that i have yet to blog abt my outing last mon with my dearest missions team members – janice, patrick and zhenghao! *gasps* i noe it’s a little late… but better late than never! hee. =P
to cut the long story short, we had a great time just fellowshipping and toking! (: honestly, i love such talks! i love it when i sit down (on nice big sofas! hee) and hang ard at a nice comfy place, just talking to my frens! i really love it! just enjoying each other’s company… talking abt anything under the sun! haha. well, that was wat we did! (:
we went to marina food court for dinner and after which, we proceeded to andersens for ice cream!! WHEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!!!!! zheng hao had been craving for ice cream ever since the malang trip! HAHA! funny guy…
so we just sat there, ate ice cream, toked abt our lives… how the missions trip has changed us… talked abt church… talked abt crappy stuff as well!! before we knew it, it was close to 11pm and it was time for us to head home! a simple outing… yet, it’s really the company of these pple that really counts!
did i mention? janice treated us to the ice cream at andersens! THANKS ALOT JANICE!
i like wat delvina said on her blog.. “many say that those who go for MT together usually share a special bond”, and well, i definitely do believe in that! for those who dunno wat we mean, go for a mission trip urself and u’ll certainly understand! (:
i’m really glad that even after the missions trip, we are still keeping in contact with each other! and despite everyone’s busy schedule, we still take the time off to meet up and catch up with one another!
honestly, even tho i’m the youngest among all my team members, they really never made me feel left out at all! instead, i feel so loved, so well taken care off by all of them! hee. i’m like the small kid in the team and it feels GREAT to be the youngest coz there will be pple to ‘look after’ u! YAYY!! haha.
and of course, not forgetting, yuli, andry, windra and keke who never fail to take care of me coz i’m the youngest too! haha. =P but of course, they did a wonderful job in taking care of my other team members as well!
alright, the ‘i-miss-malang’ feeling is very slowly starting to die down. like wat windra said, this feeling will go away. but of course, the memories are still very vivid to me! each time i think abt how i spent my one week in malang, it felt like as tho i’ve been to malang only just ytd! but hey! it’s been almost a month since i’m back! *gasps* time really flies!!
i still havent gotten all the photos for the malang trip yet… ): i really wanna develop the photos and do my own journal of my first missions trip! on top of that, i feel that God is stirring up my creative juices in my mind to come up with sth! SHHHH.. im not going to say anything! heehee. =P
missions is fun! but of course, on top of all the fun, missions is really a life changing experience… sth that u’ll only get to experience outside the four walls of the church! (:
i’ve definitely learnt alot during my first trip and this trip wouldnt have been made so fun, enjoyable and memorable without the following pple!
JANICE – my dearest missions team leader! u were like my big sister throughout that 1 week! when i first met u, honestly, i was a little afraid coz i dunno how ur like and i’ve never spoken to u before! but on the first day at the airport, ur care and constant look out for me really touched me deeply. ur others-before-self attitude is really amazing! (:
throughout the trip, u never fail to make sure that i’m well taken care of.. u never fail to remind me to constantly update my parents abt the trip so that they will not be so worried! i’ll never forget on the first day how i came to realise ur love for chilli is as much as my love for it! and as the days passed, we realised that we have many things in common! (:
ur constant jokes and infectious laughters really hype up the whole atmosphere during the trip! and i really never knew u were that approachable until dinner on the first night! i guess that night really broke the ice btwn the both of us!
i’ll definitely not forget wat happened on the first night in andry’s car when we were on the way back home (it’s still so vivid in my mind!). u asked me if i wanted to preach at the youth cell group meeting the next day! i noe i didnt tell u this, but it was like a prayer answered! i really wanted to preach, but i didnt noe how to tell u! so yes.. i was really excited but yet at the same time, apprehensive to preach my first sermon!
i’ll oso not forget the time when u shared ur testimony during ur preaching at the bethany youth svc.. how u almost teared as u shared God’s goodness towards u.. honestly, i was touched. i’ll really never believe that u were once a stutterer, that u once suffered from low self-esteem as well. but now, God has raised u up to be such a great leader!
thank you for sharing so much with me during the trip as well. i’ve definitely learnt alot from u! how to always be prepared in season and out of season! and most certainly, thank you for always challenging me during the trip, believing in me and encouraging me! UR THE BEST!
ZHENG HAO – haha! i think ur really funny! ur always so smiley and i’ll definitely remember how u tried to break the ice btwn the both of us! HAHA. i noe i wasnt very talkative on the way to malang coz i was really tired andi could really tell u were trying to get me engaged. but i’m so sorry, i just kept falling asleep! haha. i’ll never forget how u fell asleep a few times in the car! it’s hilarious! haha. and how u took a photo of me sleeping with keke as the mastermind and u as the accomplice! rah.
well.. u were like my partner during the trip coz we went for all the youth meetings tgt! haha. i’ll also not forget how u got so nervous and apprehensive over ur offering msgs (and i wasnt that nervous even tho i was preaching! haha) and the many many hours u took to ‘cook’ both ur sermons and ur offering msgs! hee. on top of that, u’ll always make fun of me and my love for chocolates and dunkin donuts! i can never understand why.. maybe becoz i’m too nice and hence, u like to poke fun at me! haha. oh wells.
but aside all these funny moments, u really never fail to amaze me with ur willingness to help! ur always helping around, carrying stuff, pushing the trolley, setting the table for dinner, cleaning up the place, carrying our luggages etc.. and ur love for the pple in malang is amazing too! ur so keen on helping the pple there and wanting to see the pple there grow in their walk with God! ur friendliness makes u so approachable and u can easily click with the pple there!
i noe i didnt tell u this… but actually, i was really touched that day when u went on a 24hr fast before u preached ur sermon. i could really sense ur hunger for a mighty move of God during that meeting… ur willingness to improve on ur sermon… ur strong will on really wanting to impart sth great to the pple there… i was so touched and moved! and u did not even seem tempted at all when we ate ur most fav black soup!!
ur always so willing to go the extra mile and give ur best and for that, kudos to u! (:
PATRICK – ur one of the most humble guy that i’ve ever met! when u shared ur testimony, i’m really amazed at how much God has changed u! i would really never believe how u were like in the past! but yes, God is always good! (:
ur willingness to learn and ur willingness to serve others just blows me away! tho most of the time ur doing support duties, u willingly do them and ur always so faithful in doing them… making sure that everything is done to the best of ur ability! u never fail to smile and ur smile definitely brightens up my day!
i’ll never forget how the both of us slacked around in solargracia.. taking photos and eating dunkin donuts! heehee.
and ur genoristy never fail to touch me deeply! i’ll always rmb how u wanted to bless me with dunkin donuts becoz u knew my love for the donuts even tho u were not working and did not have much for urself. it was really funny ‘fighting’ in front of the cashier coz u wanted to pay for me. i still rmb the cashier laughing at us! haha. but thank you for the little things that u have blessed me with during the trip! (:
i just want u to noe.. cont being faithful and i’m very sure that one day, God will use u mightily!
WINDRA – haha. i thank God for technology becoz i’m still able to keep in contact with u! even tho we tok online quite often and i noe u read my blog (haha), i still wanna take this time to thank u for being such a great host!
u were like my interpreter during the trip! haha! i still rmb the very first cg meeting we had in the evening on the first day. before cg, i was sitting all alone, not toking to anyone coz i was rather tired and u came along and sat next to me. u started introducing urself and i tot u had a very cool name! haha. when u said i could call u win, i tot u meant wind! and u were like ‘NO LA!’ haha. i can never forget ur big reaction that day! and that evening, as i shared my testimony during cg, u interpreted for me! hee. (:
after that we went for dinner and i started guessing ur age! i still cant believe that ur ___ yrs old! i SERIOUSLY tot ur 21! u look SO YOUNG! haha.
aside all these, ur another really humble guy! ur so hungry for God and so hungry to learn! ur very frenly as well! ur passion for the youths really inspires me greatly! despite ur busy schedule, thank you for taking time off to fellowship with us and to drive us to the various venues for the meetings! ur always ever so willing to serve others! (:
oh yes! i really do love the fried rice that we ate! like u said, it’s the bestest fried rice that i’ve ever tasted! hee. oh ya! and ur attention to minor details and ur thoughtfulness really touched me! i never told u this.. that night after we finished eating our fried rice, when u offered to buy another plate of fried rice for me coz u noe i LOVE the fried rice and also becoz i was having gastric, i was really touched. i was even more touched when u wanted to packet fried rice for me so that i can have it for breakfast! thank you! (:
i was also very touched when u asked if i was tired after preaching my first sermon on the way home! ur tiny gestures like these always make me feel so touched, loved and cared for! hee. thank you!
YULI – ur my pretty lady! hee. CONGRATS on ur wedding that is coming up real soon! and i’m so excited for u! thank you so much for everything that u have done for us during the trip! u and janice never fail to stop laughing! hee. ur such a cheerful person and ur laughter, like janice, is really infectious!
ur always so hungry for the things of God… and always wanting to improve urself! ur so humble and ur constant care and concern towards us make me feel so loved! hee. despite ur hectic schedule at work and the enormous workload, u always take time to call back constantly during ur working hours to make sure that everything at home is alright and well taken care of! (:
thank you for letting us sleep in ur room that night when we were at dampit too! i really love ur room! its so big and ur bed is so comfy! how i wish i can have a room like urs! hee.
honestly, on the last day when u and keke drove all the way down from malang to surabaya just to send us and the surabaya team off, i was really very touched! ur love and ur willingness to go the extra mile for pple is amazing! that day, i really didnt want to leave and i really almost teared! just that i controlled! hee. and we really felt so honoured that u actually came to send us off!
thank you so much yuli! (: u were a blessing during the trip! (:
ANDRY – u always like to call me xiao jie jie coz i’m the youngest in the team and among all of u but yet, i’m the oldest child at home! haha.
when i first met u, i rmbed it was zhenghao introduing u to me. the moment u started talking, i was really taken aback coz it was my first time hearing an indonesian chinese speaking such fluent chinese with china accent! haha. and it was an even greater surprise to find out that u and yuli are siblings! dun ask me why.. i was just surprised! haha.
i still rmb how u helped me interprete during the mini children church svc that i conducted and how u really helped me to get the kids excited! u definitely do have a way with handling kids and i can tell that u really love the kids too! (: i believe that night was really memorable and most impressionable. like wat u said, i believe too that God was smiling over that place that night. (:
i’ll also not forget how we woke u up from ur sleep coz we reached ur house late that night. but yet, u were so hospitable and so eager to see the offering msg and the testimony that i prepared so that u could interprete them the next day during the meetings. and that night, we just sat at the table, sharing abt alot of things. (:
and most unforgettably, i’ll always rmb wat u said to me before we made our way to the airport on the last day! it was certainly very edifying and encouraging! thank you so much! (:
thank you for all that u’ve done during the trip! like the rest, despite ur busy schedule, u took time off to fellowship and bring us to the various venues for the meetings! ur so friendly, approachable, and so wiling to help others! thank you for ur eyedrops too! ur care and concern really touched me when u brought more eyedrops for me the next day! i still have them with me! hee. thanks alot!
KEKE – i love ur chilli!! hee. thank you so much for preparing the meals for us! ur cooking is BAGUS! heehee. CONGRATS ON UR WEDDING TOO!
ur such a funny, mischievious, cheeky and, like u say, cute guy! haha. yuli is so blessed to have u and u are so blessed to have yuli as well! u always wake up early to prepare our meals for us! thank you for sacrificing ur sleep!
and thank you for bringing us around to shop too!! i really love having u around and definitely enjoyed ur company!
ur really the mr nice guy with a super duper good attitude!! (: ur so funny and wherever we go, u never fail to bring joy and laughter to us! thank you so much for everything! (:
so yup! i thank God that i’ve been blessed with such wonderful pple during the trip!
i was toking to owner.. or rather, i’m still toking to her now.. and we started toking abt the times when she first brought me to church. hee.
this was our conversation..
*pammie* says:
u la.. so different from last time when i first came to church
mel says:
haha
mel says:
what do u mean?
*pammie* says:
last time u dun really care abt me
*pammie* says:
haha
mel says:
huh
mel says:
last time i dont care abt you?!
mel says:
where have
mel says:
now i care more ah>?
*pammie* says:
-nods
*pammie* says:
hee
mel says:
i tot you would i say i care more abt you last time
mel says:
den i do now
mel says:
hahaha
mel says:
so weird
*pammie* says:
dunno lehz..
*pammie* says:
maybe becoz now u speak my love language so that’s why it feels like u care more for me now
*pammie* says:
haha
*pammie* says:
last time u oso wont ask me out
*pammie* says:
or u wont really call me first
*pammie* says:
i must call u and whine and cry and complain
*pammie* says:
then u’ll just listen and not tok much
mel says:
haha
mel says:
hmm
haha. SO….. from this whole convo, i realised that speaking the other party’s love language is REALLY impt! if ur not speaking the receiver’s love language, u may think ur showing love, BUT actually he/she might not really feel that he/she is receiving love! (:
SO… let me educate u on the 5 love languages! hee.
1. physical touch
2. quality time
3. words of affirmation
4. giving of gifts
5. acts of service
my love language is quality time and words of affirmation! therefore. spend more time with me and affirm me more! hee. =P
WHAT’S YOUR LOVE LANGUAGE??? tell me! i really want to noe!
speak my love language! hee.
i went back to st nicks last fri with my dearest SNBT peeps! YUPEI, SHU and PEIXUAN! (: short of tricia tho. shuwen is flying off for sydney tmr!! gosh! that leaves only me, yupei, peixuan and tricia in spore!
the trip back to st nicks was definitely very fruitful! it brought back lots of memories that i had when i was just 13-16 yrs old back then! but of course, it was also a time for us to get together and a farewell for dearest shu as well!
we took lots of photos! YAYY!!
to peixuan: plse send the photos to me asap k!
well.. i woke up late that fri. washed silly fatfat’s cage and made my way down to st nicks! as i sat on the familiar 76 bus, the route to st nicks brings back memories! i rmb how ade and i would meet at the bus stop and go to school tgt.. i rmb how peixuan, tricia and i would take the same bus home after badminton trainings… i rmb how rongsiu and i would take bus home tgt on the days when i have no trainings… i rmb how i would always fall asleep in the bus (without fail) on the way to school and on the way home and the list just goes on! (:
when i alighted at the bus stop, opposite me was the familiar macs where i studied with many frens… the very nice beancurd stall (my mum still rmbs it!)… but of course, with the addition of a few new shops!
as i walked up the familiar pathway to st nicks, i rmb how my frens and i will go crazy laughing and toking as we walked out of school… how we would disturb the residents nearby becoz we’re so loud… how we would just wear our pe-tshirt and shorts and walked out… how we would brave the storms when it’s pouring cats and dogs.. haha.
then, i entered the school gate. i walked past the very familiar badminton hall. the hall where i trained for 4 yrs… the hall where SNBT went thru thick and thin tgt.. the hall where yupei and i kept playing agst shuwen and erica becoz there were no other sparring partners for us (haha).. the hall where i’ll always rmb that there is no other doubles partner who can replace yupei! and like before, the list goes on…
actually, i really miss playing badminton. i really miss playing competitive badminton. i miss trainings in st nicks. i miss playing in tampines sports hall. i miss the feeling of being on court during competitions. i miss playing badminton with yupei. i miss the times when we’ll write notes to encourage each other before major matches and i miss the times when we’ll reassure each other when we’re on court. i miss the ‘tian yi wu feng’ (quoted from my coach) doubles coordination that we have. i miss the time when we made history by clinching the CHAMPIONSHIP TITLE in 2004! we were CHAMPIONS!!! well-deserved CHAMPIONS!
i stepped into the canteen and there i saw yupei, shuwen and peixuan going on to their dessert – ice jelly! haha. well.. i’m really sorry to be late! >< hee. anyway.. i ate my favourite popiah! yum yum! we had a good time toking in the canteen. (:
then, we decided to find the teachers even tho we didnt really spend much time toking to them. btw… the staffroom has become really crammy!
next up, we went for a school tour and photo taking session! hee. we walked and peered into the various classrooms, went back to the canteen again, went to the bridge, went to the playground and finally, to the hall! yupei forced me and shuwen to play scissors paper stone! rah.
sadly, i couldnt spend much time toking to my badminton teachers and coach in the hall becoz i had to rush off to give tuition. but all in all, it was a good trip back to school! made me realised how much older i’ve grown! haha. BUT (there’s always a ‘but’) i’m still young at heart! pple say they are forever 18, forever 21 etc… BUT i’m forever 16! sweet 16! hee. (:
anyway.. i met joanne today when i went to send mic, gid and joce off. they’re going for taiwan emerge until sunday! i’m so jealous! >.< well, joanne and i started toking and we realised we’re both going to NUS! WHEEEEEEEEEE!!! which means, our school term breaks are the same… which means, we’ve decided to go for missions tgt in december! DDDDDDD
december missions trip schedule is still not up on church website yet BUT i have faith to believe that there will be a trip to malang in december! and then, i can have joanne with me!! YAYYY!!! gosh!! so exciting!! hehe.
i’ll be back in malang at the end of the yr!!
the POWER OF CONFESSION! hee.
i went out with ernah and emily today!
and we had a last min fren who joined us at the very last min for dinner coz she had nothing to do! that person is none other than MISS MEE POK = MISS HUANG YANLING! haha.
and becoz she last min joined us for dinner, i had to last min buy her a cake coz her birthday is this coming sat and at the last min when we finished our dinner, i surprised her with the cake! hee.
and becoz i couldnt find matchsticks or lighter at the last min (even tho i went round to the different stalls in the food court to ask around, they just didnt have. talking abt the stallholders, each time i asked for matchsticks or lighter, without fail, all of them gave me this really frightful look like as tho i was going to burn down the building or sth! HA!), i was unable to light the candle for my dear miss last min.
and becoz everything was so last min, i had to last min and very secretly buy yanling her present! haha.
but i’m happy she came today! so long never tok to her! hee.
it was a great time of fellowship with my 2 dearest members too! love all of u! -huggs-
here are the photos from today!
yanling with her last min brownie birthday cake with an unlighted candle! hee.
ernah with her coconut! yanling with her cake!
me and my dearest emily! <3
yanling with the last min present! but she likes it alot coz i bought her sth that she really wanted! hee.
the last min present on display! nice nice!
20 random things abt me!
1. i secretly like pple to call me pammie!
2. i think the name pompom is cute! =P
3. i love chocolates!
4. i love receiving letters esp snail mails! they really do work wonders in brightening up my day! *hints*
5. i love kids!
6. i wanna start my own AUNTY PAM’s cafe!
7. i like PURPLE!
8. i took one month before i learnt how to strum the most basic strumming on the guitar
9. i can sleep at ANYWHERE and ANYTIME!
10. i love to take long bus rides
11. i have no sense of direction
12. i like to laugh! HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAAHAHAHA.
13. i use MANY MANY exclamation marks when i write!
14. i like to just sit and stone and stare into space
15. my dearest tree aka my owner aka melissa pruned me since the beginning of this yr
16. i only enjoy queuing up for svc, other than that, i dislike queuing!
17. i have a very young ancestor who’s still alive and breathing!
18. i love bubble tea!
19. i am a water tap (as wat jenn calls me) becoz i activate my tear glands very easily
20. i want to travel around the world!
some random photos!
my prince charming!
highlighting my hair!
shogun girls at NUS medical check up!
IN NEW ZEALAND last yr nov….
i love strawberry shortcake!
my sister could stand on water becoz she had faith!! haha.
the horse’s mouth was disgusting!
crossing over….
success!
my dad re-living his younger days on the trampoline!
i tried to dance. HAHA.
i walked into the wall! WHOOOOOOOO!! =P
PAM is the brand! YEA!
fun on the trampoline!
clear blue sky!
mel: dun come near me! i’ll shoot myself with this drumstick!
fenky fenky!
aunty sheri from australia!
puddly in toys r’ us!
guess who!
max!
hungry max!
i’m COOL! haha!
our miracle building!
my baptism!
oops!
i did this….
and jas did that! haha.
yanling and alex’s baptism!
my first multiplication and i cried very badly!
angelic owner!
they look alike!!
i miss yanling!
owner’s BIG birthday card! made by me!
our delicious and yummy sandwich!
i miss jo!
spelling bee contestants for emerge ‘06!
briony! haha.
sleeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeepyyyyyyyy brothers…
me trying to start a fire… but i think it wasnt really successful..
a sentosa outing very very long time ago!
owner teaching guan spelling bee words!
buzzzzzzzzzzzzzz…. i need help with the words!
honestly, i never knew i had so many photos until i was looking through my folders! maybe it’s time to start posting all my old photos again! revive the memories! hee. (:
alrights. i noe it’s late and i shld be sleeping. but a part of me cant get to sleep becoz i’m thinking abt alot of stuff and partly becoz i have things to do as well. I MUST STOP WORRYING. like what i’ve learnt from cell group on sunday, put God first and everything will be fine! so… i shld STOP WORRYING! haha. set my mind and focus on God and ONLY GOD!! rah.
so anyway… i have to blog this down! God has been speaking to me quite alot these few days!
(fatfat is running on the wheel now!! so fast and noisy! haha.)
last sunday, i was rather upset abt certain stuff that happened before service. i was down but when praise started, i made that decision to still give God all the praise. so i put a smile on my face, jumped up and down like wat i always do.
i still rmb we sang the song EVERYDAY and there was a line that says ‘everyday its You i live for’… at that line, it suddenly hit me so hard like never before.. that even tho things may not go my way.. pple may let me down… i may be feeling tired… but God.. it’s You i live for. i dun live for the pple around me.. i dun live for the things that are happening around me.. i dun live for myself.. but God… yes, it’s YOU i live for. You, You, You and ONLY You.
there are times when we grow so tired serving in church… we grow so tired over the things that are happening in our lives. but hey! wait a min.. stop and check urself! have we grown into monotonous serving in church? when we become tired of serving, when we become tired over the things in our lives, have we put ministry and our problems above God? have we forgotten that God is first and above everything else? have we forgotten that when we serve, it is for God and not for ourselves? that serving isnt just a routine or a habit?
but when God is first… when we do everything becoz we want to do it for Him… when we live our lives for Him… that is when our lives takes a turn. that is when u dun get tired of serving or with the things in ur life, but this is when there is always an overflowing joy in u when u serve or go thru storms in ur life! that is when u say “God, it’s You and no one else.” (:
so when we sang the praise songs, i sang with all my heart… praised with all my heart.. jumped with all my heart… at that point, i teared while praising God.
when we went into worship, we sang the song ‘who am i’… last saturday when we sang that song… i was reminded of this part in the Bible when Moses said to God “who am i that i should go to Pharaoh… who am i that i should deliver the children of Israel out of Egypt?’ i can totally understand how Moses felt at that point of time when God commanded him to go to Pharaoh and deliver the children of Israel from the oppression that they were facing in Egypt. Moses was just an ordinary man who helped to tend the flock. But God said to him “I will certainly be with you… I AM WHO I AM..”
yes.. i asked God many times, just like Moses, who am i that He should use me? who am i to be worthy of all the goodness that is taking place in my life? who am i to accomplish the great dreams and destiny God has for me? i am just an ordinary girl. but i learnt that saturday that when God comes and empowers u, everything is possible. the impossible becomes possible because i have an EXTRAORDINARY God! my God is a God of possibilities! i teared in God’s presence. i was touched by His amazing reassurance.
on sunday, we sang the same song. i was feeling disheartened and down by what happened before service. i asked God again… am i really worthy of the call that u have given to me? who am i to be able to receive Your high calling for me? then God spoke, edified, encouraged and ministered to me. He said “many are called but few are chosen”… a familiar saying but yet, it has never come upon me with such a great realisation as that on sunday.
i realised that yes, many pple are called by God… but how many of us are actually willing to respond to that call God has for us? and even if we do respond to that call, how many of us are willing to make the neccessary sacrifices to go after the calling God has in our lives? indeed, God doesn’t use the gold or the silver vessels, but God uses the willing and the yielded. “because you are willing… because of ur attitude.. because I’ve seen the sacrifices that u have made….” that was wat God said to me. instantaneously, tears streamed down my cheeks.
Daddy God… thank You so much. thank You for Your reassurance. thank You for everything. You are the potter and i am Your clay. mould me.. shape me into the person You’ve called me to be. thank You thank You and thank You. i didnt noe wat to say to God except to thank Him for everything.
u noe… i love God! i really do! i really really really do love God! no one can give me such reassurance… such encouragement except Him. no one else but You. (:
today, i was toking to someone on the phone… in fact, more of counselling that person. and then, i realised that faith is the confidence to step out into the unknown. haha. i dunno how to put it into words.. but it’s amazing how i can actually catch sth while counselling. heehee.
alrights.. i better go off now! (:
