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YAYYY!!!! at times like this… when i feel like as tho i’m in a desert in singapore, i really really am thankful for rain!!!!! i love the rain at this point of time!!! such a timely rain!!! all my prayers for it to rain has not gone to waste!!! hehe. 
DDDDDD
i’m looking forward to a very cooling night!!! YAYYYYY!!!! DDDD
finally!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i pray for a longer rain!!! thunderstorm, lightning.. heavy rain! wateva! just cool the weather dear God!!!
in Jesus name,
AMEN!!!!
i had biz law paper today! i was really hoping that i could perform better during the paper. questions were tricky and i didnt have time to write many points that i wanted to write. but i tried my best. and i pray that God will do the rest!
i really really hope that this sem isnt going to be as chui as last semester!! =(((
pam is tired
pam is edgy
pam is agitated
and the stupid weather isnt helping much! i feel like i’m in the desert! and despite it being at night, it’s just as hot!! i cant imagine wat hell is like. i thank God that i’m not going there.
and the air con in my room isnt helping much at all!! it isnt cooling the room but emitting warm air!! like ARGH!! and it’s such a waste of electricity to switch on both the air con and the fan to cool the room and it just feels as stuffy as before. so why on the air con?! i’m just gonna switch it off!!!!
ARGH.
after taking 2 papers in a row, i definitely do feel exhausted and drained! but i must press on!!
soci paper in the morning was not bad, i would say. but sadly, i ran out of time to write all the points that i wanted to write. i’m praying and hoping that i’ll be able to get a B+ and above soci! in fact, i very much hope that i’ll be able to get an A!!! then that would be the first A that i’ve gotten!!
financial accounting was just HORRENDOUS!!!! it was totally CHUI (in hokkien)!!!! the paper was TOUGH!!! ARGH! i studied so hard for accounting but yet it turned out like CRAP. i feel sad actually.. but i know that i’ve tried my best.
not only was the paper difficult, the examination conditions were like CRAP too! there was so much distractions and on top of that, the air con was SWITCHED OFF!!! like MAN!!!!!!! i felt like i was totally burning!!!!!! and i had a splitting headache after half an hour into the paper. the headache just lasted throughout the whole paper… saddddddddddddddddddddddd
and after sitting thru the accounting paper…
here’s pompompam’s set of accounting standards…
the balance sheet is never meant to be balanced. if u get it balanced, u are so wrong.
asset is NEVER equal to shareholders equity plus liability.
the net cash flow in the cash flow statement shld NEVER be the same as the amt of cash in the balanced sheet.
there is no such thing as depreciation.
debits shld never be equal to credits.
just count the amt of cash u have. there is no need to prepare a cash flow statement. too much cash to count? then get pple to help u la!
ok.. enough of crap… it’s back to law…
go pam go!!!!!!
i’m so stressed today that i ate…
a cheesecake
rice plus 3 dishes
a packet of cheezels
a big cup of ice cream
huge serving of dinner
appetizer
and i feel like eating some more!!
oh God!! plse save me and help me!!!!!!
i really really really need to pray!!!!!!!!
if u are given a choice to choose either knowledge or love, which would u choose?
i would choose love.. (:
exams are starting in 2 days time!! and i’m starting to freak out!! i do not want to do badly like the last semester.. but yet, i dun feel confident abt the coming exams!
FNA (financial accouting) is making me go bonkers!! all the accounts.. balance sheets.. journal entries… balancing of the different financial statements etc etc are making me go TOTALLY crazy!! i tried my best to understand.. did past year papers.. practised the online question etc etc.. but i still dun feel confident at all!! like OH MAN! SAVE ME!! youyi tried to save me by giving me a crash course on thurs… i must say it did help but i still feel like as tho there’s tonnes that i still dunno.. =S i do not really wanna say that i hate FNA coz the truth is.. i do like it.. coz it involves calculations..
law is interesting but so much to read!!
soci is interestin as well.. but i have yet to start!! like HURRRRRRRRR.. i’m so dead right!!!
OM is bad
MNO is crap
rah…
i need all the prayers that i can get!!!
dear God,
i pray that let my words carry weight, Your presence, Your glory and Your anointing… anoint me from the crown of my head to the sole of my feet… thank You Jesus! (:
the question of love kept surfacing in my mind for the past few days. i kept questioning myself.. how much do i love God? how much do i love others? how much do i love myself? has my love for myself gone to the extent of self-centeredness? self-vainity? or has my love for others grown to the point that i’m willing to take that extra mile for every fren that i noe?
as i do a self-check, i really dunno where i stand. is it God, me, others? or is it me, God, others? or is it God, others, me? when i think of the sacrifices i make for others, i think it’s the 3rd choice. but yet, when i think of wat Jesus had done for me on the cross, i pale in comparison. then when i ponder over whether i love God more than myself… frankly, i really dunno. haha.
but i came to the realisation that…
LOVE = OBEDIENCE + SACRIFICE
becoz Jesus loves us, He OBEYed God’s word and SACRIFICED His life as a way to redeem and save our souls!
today, i had a revelation of the cross. no doubt, we all noe that the vertical beam means loving God wholeheartedly and the horizontal beam means loving pple fervently.
but now, if u realise, both the vertical and horizontal beams of the cross are NEVER of equal lengths. it’s always the vertical beam longer than the horizontal beam. so which means, my love for God should far surpass my love for pple. just like wat one verse says that when comparing my love for pple to my love for God, it would SEEM like as tho its hatred towards others simply becoz my love for Him is just so so so deep!
then where does the love for myself stand?
on the cross, it talks abt love for God and love for others.. wat abt love for myself?
if i can put it bluntly across, it can be found no where on the cross. why? becoz when Jesus died on the cross for u and me, His love for God and mankind far surpass His love for Himself.
Jesus loves you and me so so so much that He was willing to give His life up as a way of redemption for u and me. but does that mean that Jesus didnt love Himself? no, He loved Himself. but yet, His love for others is far greater and immeasurable when compared to His love for Himself.
a cross is never a cross when the vertical beam or the horizontal beam is missing. so wat does this mean? we cant love others without loving God and we cant love God without loving others! the former means that by our own strength, we cant love others much becoz humans are selfish and self-centered by nature. but yet, when we love God, we find it easy to love pple because with God, He feels our hearts with love that fills to the brim and to the overflowing. and the latter means that when we love God, we cannot help but to love His creation..
so it is, that even tho we all noe that we shld love… that we shld love God, others then myself, but we need to all come to the revelation of noeing wat love and loving God, others then myself really means. (:
my blog is collecting dust and it has been quite some time since i last blogged! haha. i’m busy preparing for exams which is starting next monday!! so dear all, i’ll definitely appreciate if all of u could keep me in prayers!!! arigato! (:
16 days to freedom!!! 16 days to attending SOT EVERYDAY!!! DD
anyway, as much as i wanna update and talk abt alot alot of stuff.. i’ve decided to just post a story that i came across in one of my older entries that i blogged abt a year ago.. (:
enjoy!!
A minister passing through his church in the middle of the day decided to pause by the altar and see who had come to pray. Just then the back door opened, a man came down the aisle, the minister frowned as he saw that the man hadn’t shaved in awhile. His shirt was kinda’ shabby and his coat was worn and frayed. The man knelt, bowed his head, then arose and walked away.
In the days that followed each noontime came this chap and each time he knelt just for a moment, a lunch pail in his lap. Well, the minister’s suspicions grew, and robbery was his main fear. He decided to stop the man and ask him, “Watcha’ doing’ here?”
The old man worked down the road. Lunch was half an hour. Lunchtime was his prayer time, for finding strength and power. “I stay only moments, see, ’cause the factory is so far away; As I kneel here talking to the Lord, this is kinda’ what I say: “I just came again to tell You, Lord, how happy I’ve been, since we found each other’s friendship and You took away my sin. I don’t know much of how to pray, but I think about You every day. So, Jesus, this is Jim checking in.”
The minister feeling foolish told Jim, that was fine. He told the man he was welcome to come and pray just anytime. Time to go, Jim smiled, said “Thanks.” He hurried to the door.
The minister knelt at the altar, he’d never done it before. His cold heart melted, warmed with love, met with Jesus there. As the tears flowed, in his heart, he repeated old Jim’s prayer: “I just came again to tell You, Lord, how happy I’ve been, since we found each other’s friendship and You took away my sin. I don’t know much of how to pray, but I think about You every day. So, Jesus, this is me checking in.”
It was past noon one day, the minister noticed that old Jim hadn’t come. As more days passed without Jim, he began to worry. He went to the factory and asked about Jim and found out he was ill. The hospital staff was worried, but he’d given them a thrill. The week that Jim was with them, brought changes in the ward. His smiles, a joy contagious. Changed people, his reward. The head nurse couldn’t understand why Jim was so glad, When no flowers, calls or cards came, not a visitor he had. The minister stayed by his bed, he voiced the nurse’s concern: No friends came to show they cared. He had nowhere to turn.
Looking surprised, old Jim spoke up and with a winsome smile; “The nurse is wrong, she couldn’t know, that all the while everyday at noon He’s here, a dear friend of mine, you see, He sits right down, takes my hand, leans over and says to me: “I just came again to tell you, Jim, how happy I have been, since we found this friendship, and I took away your sin. I always love to hear you pray, I think about you each day, and so Jim, this is Jesus checking in.”
i love this story!
so today, this is my prayer..
Dear Lord Jesus,
i came again to tell You, Lord, how happy i have been, since we found each other’s frenship and You took away my sins. i dont noe much of how to pray, but i think abt You everyday. So Jesus, this is pompompam checking in… (:
simple but yet the words are so meaningful… so sincere… so innocent… no agenda… just pure love for Jesus..
i wanna love You more and more.. thank You Lord Jesus for this friendship that lasts for eternity.. (:
on a sidenote, i wonder if Jesus do call me by my fav nickname – pompompam!! hehe. =P
i think God just laughed!!!!!!! oh man!!! haha.
Jesus i give You my heart
never will we be apart
move in me change my life
Jesus i give You all…
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the greatest thing in all my life is knowing You
the greatest thing in all my life is serving You
the greatest thing in all my life loving You
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fresh oil from heaven
flow in Your power
as we stand in reverence
fill our hearts
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we had a great vistation from God today at the start of SOT lesson day 1!!! another touch from heaven which greatly ministered to me! i really felt that i caught the anointing when we sang fresh oil from heaven. i pray that God will fill me more with His anointing so that i can serve Him in an even greater way. i’ll always remember 2 very impt things that brother bobby taught at the first 3 lessons of the hcgl class.
1. relationship precedes ministry
2. it is the anointing that gives u the confidence to preach, to minister etc etc.
it’s such an adventure to be at SOT!! i wanna go for lesson tmr! but i cant!! coz i got to go back to NUS for lessons! =(
also, pastor shared a very good word today. i’ll post it up tmr. anyway, the AN zone leaders celebrated my bday for me today!! i felt like a hug machine today! i’ve never hugged SO MANY pple before within a span of a few mins and to shake so many hands as well! haha. thanks AN zone for the bday celebration!!! DD
and of course, not forgetting to thank dearest pauline for getting my presents!! i got a yellow tank top from fox, a dark blue jacket from bum, a red purse and a pair of purple polka dotted earrings!! come to think of it, my presents are so colourful eh!! haha. i really really like my presents alot!! thanks pauline for getting them and having such AWESOME taste! DD
so yes, God ministered to me in a way that only He could yesterday during cell group meeting.
God brought me back to those times when i struggled… fought… faced difficulties but yet, eventually, i still emerged victorious! the many battles, struggles and difficulties that i fought tgt with God! indeed, God is the strength of my heart! the only way to get out of a valley is not by escaping, or walking round it, but by walking through it! and not walking thru it alone, but walking thru it WITH God!!
then in a still small voice, God spoke to me and said, “you have come this far… dun give up… dun give up on Me… press on to the dreams and visions that u have for Me…”
there and then, i wept. i’ve nv cried so much in the presence of God for quite some time. becoz when i felt like crying, i’d stopped myself from doing so… only becoz i was tired of having to cry over the same stuff. it was such a wrong thing to do. i was just causing myself to become emotionally shutdown and running away from my problems.
but suddenly, a touch from heaven during cell group meeting! i felt that every hardness of heart in me melted away. God restored my soul. God lifted me up from my fears, failures and disappointments.
time and again when i feel like giving up… time and again when i feel so discouraged, God is never too early and never late! but He is ALWAYS RIGHT ON TIME!!
a refreshing touch from heaven.. a divine encounter with God once again.
i wanna pen it down in greater detail in my notebook.
thank You Jesus… (:
and today was the start of SOT!! – SOT ORIENTATION!! DD
we played human monopoly! and tho it was physically very tiring and demanding, it was nevertheless fun!!!! TEAM 1 ROCKS!!! i love my team!!! (((((:
it started off a bit weird for me becoz i was upset joce, peng and ching feng were not in the same group as yulin, wei lin and i. but every disappointment, God used it to turn around for a new appointment! my team turned out more fun and enthu than expected!! hehe. i love team 1!!! DDD
got pple to go crazy and enthu with me! esp tan yulin and BWL – bimbo wei lin! haha. they added much more joy, fun and laughter to the team! haha. not forgetting the rest of my other team mbrs! they were equally as fun to be with as well!!! DD and zengmin is like guan.. always making fun of me!! TSK TSK!!!!!!
i really love the whole atmosphere and fellowship with team 1 and the rest of the SOT students! there really is a difference in fellowship when God is amongst our midst! (:
quoting shane, “ur definitely going to miss ur SOT days becoz of this group of frens (referring to team 1)” and i so TOTALLY agree!!! (:
i’m foreseeing that this blog is gonna be filled with posts on SOT and team 1 very soon!! after my exams!! hehe. DD
today is the start.. the beginning of a new adventure with YOU Daddy God!! stretch my capacity! enlarge my tents!
take all of me.. i give You my all for all of You… (:
