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i’m at david’s house now slacking away! haha.
the rest are playing mahjong but i’m not playing becoz they are playing with money involved! so i’m just in front of the laptop trying to keep myself occupied! haha. oh wells. i really dunno wat to do oso. it feels kinda weird!!! haha. i’ve hardly spoken a word since i’ve reached his place. i think i can count the number of words that i’ve spoken! haha.
there’s FT2 test tmr and i really shld be studying for my test tmr! but it’s gonna be very weird for me to take out my book and start studying for the test! so… i really dunno wat to do. haha. i feel like talking on the phone but my phone batt is running low! oh mannnnnnn… i feel stranded at holland! haha. help!
i really really shld have gone home!!
i feel like sleeping and taking a nap… haha.
anyway, i had my FT1 test today! i dun really think it’s easy!! i anyhow guessed my answer for quite a number of questions! i just hope i dun fail my test! haha.
Pastor Tan has been teaching at SOT! he’s really good! haha. had quite a few revelations during class this week! (:
ok, i really dunno wat else to blog abt. haha.
fatty just talked to me..
here’s our conversation
fatty: are u staying for dinner?
me: err.. i dunno leh…
fatty: if not then u come here to read blogs ah… very sad leh!
HAHA. oh man.. when he said that, i really feel like laughing! i oso dunno wat to do! mr david told me that there will be other pple who will be playing without money involved! then now like that.. wat can i do… the laptop is my companion lor… haha.
oh yes, which reminds me! i had the most interesting conversation with this guy who added me on msn coz he saw my msn add on friendster. he’s 16 years old only. but i was very sian diao after talking to him. haha. dun ask me why. only yulin, shiming and joce shld noe. bleah. =P
recently, there have been a few pple in my life who asked me why am i such a devoted christian? why do i go to the extent of attending bible school? do i want to be a pastor? a preacher? etc etc…
well, these questions got me thinking. i started thinking if i’m attending bible school becoz it seems like it’s the norm to do so (at least it seems so becoz the pple around me are attending bible school)… am i going to church for the sake of going? am i going to church out of a routine?
many questions came to my head.. but all these questions serve only to proof one thing – that i have a relationship with God! (:
i’m a devoted Christian becoz i know that God loves me and becoz i love God.
i’m a devoted Christian becoz in God, i find my identity.
i’m a devoted Christian becoz of my relationship with God.
i’m a devoted Christian becoz Jesus forgave me of all my sins.
i’m a devoted Christian becoz of the many encounters that i had with God. all these encounters can nv be replaced with anything else in my life. i guess it’s really becoz of these encounters that i noe and i noe that God is true, God is faithful, God is My Abba Father. (:
i’m attending bible school becoz i noe that God has called me.
i’m attending bible school becoz i want to noe so much more abt God.
i’m attending bible school becoz i’m hungry for more of Him.
i can give my frens a whole list of reasons why i’m such a devoted Christians but that does not beat experiencing God for yourself! i hope that my life itself is the message… that i’m living out the very message that Jesus left when He died for us on the cross! (:
yes, i made many sacrifices going to bible school… attending church, cell group, prayer meetings, outreaches etc… and many asked me if it’s worth it. my answer is YES, it’s all worth it. becoz the ultimate sacrifice is not the sacrifices that i’ve made but it is Jesus sacrificing His life for me… for u… for all mankind. (:
so yes, i love God but i noe that my love for Him cannot be compared to His unconditional love for me (:
i really have to find some time to pack my room and iron my clothes before school starts! it’s really becoming very horrendous! i dun like messy and dirty rooms! eeks!!
school is starting real soon and man! i’m not really looking forward to school…
but my first calling is still to be a student! so yea, it’s time to start shining in school once again!!
let Your glory and Your light shine forth in my life! (:
today, once again, i re-entered into my realm of imagination while spending time with the Lord. i imagined once again the scene whereby Jesus healed the leper. then after healing the leper, i imagined myself once again to be the one in the shoes of the leper… kneeling before Jesus.
then just like how i imagined, Jesus bent down and lifted my head up. His touch is ever so loving and gentle. right there and then, my eyes contacted with Jesus’ eyes. His eyes always filled with such love, compassion and warmth.
but this time, something different took place. Jesus stretched out His other hand and touched my heart. there and then, He said “My heart is beating tgt with yours.”
“what do You mean Lord?”
then Jesus replied “You dun ever have to feel alone or sad that no one understands you becoz I do. I understand fully what you’re going thru and how you feel. deep down… right into the depths of your heart, where no one understands, I do.”
how awesome is my God. thank You Lord. i really really do love You (:
i realised that it’s very hard to maintain a blog! but i still like blogging coz it helps me to keep track of my life! haha. =DDD
i love pictures too! coz pictures (photos especially) speak a thousand words!!! photos help u to rmb the event that took place even if it’s just a small random outing or sth like that!
anyway, i dunno if my previous post sounded depressing. but after reading thru it again, i realised that it really does sound depressing! ok, that’s the emo pam for u! haha.
tues is going to pass soon! and we are reaching the midway mark of the week! and gosh! i have loads to do! it really seems impossible! i just finished reading my church of living God book today. i still have another book to complete reading by today. and 2 exams to take, one on thurs, another on friday. not forgetting to give tuition as well!
O GOD!! plse help me survive thru this week!!
another period of enlarging my capacity (:
pompompam will try loving again..
hurts and disappointments come our way.
and that’s why we find it difficult to love once we are hurt.
we build walls to protect ourselves from being hurt.
but we cant run away from hurts and disappointments.
becoz life isnt perfect.
everyone is imperfect.
i’m imperfect.
ur imperfect.
only God is perfect.
let God turn every disappointment into a new appointment.
learning to let go and let God.
learning not to be afraid to give my all once again…
learning to face the disappointments and not run away from them.
learning to love the people around me despite…………………………………
there’s just so many things for me to learn.
love me?
hate me?
like me?
dislike me?
tolerate me?
cant tolerate me?
i pray that in this lifetime, i’m able to make an impact and leave my footprint in at least one person’s life…
i cant help but to wonder, am i easily forgettable??
ok, full stop to all these.
stop emo-ing pam.
PRAY and MOVE ON!!!
one fact abt pam.. she likes surprises!! surprises make her day!!
so.. a really sad day can be brightened up by surprises! thank you very much!
i went shopping today!! i bought 2 tops and a skirt for mango! retail therapy really does work!! and all the gals go.. AMEN!!!! haha.
but retail therapy is one thing, having the money is another thing.. oh wells.
i’m really tired!
i need my rest and sleep!
anyway, my week’s been really pack and i foresee another packed week next week!
i’m really feeling too lazy to update my blog on the many things that have taken place over the past two weeks!
all i can say is that my capacity has really been stretched! and i feel i can handle so much more things now! praise the Lord! (=
anyway, SOT today was AWESOME!! the anointing level is really increasing day by day! many pple were set free today and that includes me! thank You Lord! there is power in the blood of Christ! i noe and i noe that i am a child of God! (=
but it still feels incomplete! tmr will be another round!!
