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SUPPER!!

just came back from supper with dearest pauline, roy (!), congyan, angie and zoe!!

 

we had prata at prata house!!! i loved my egg prata!!! but the prata bom that pauline and congyan had was a definite let down! coz the last time we went there to eat, it was SO SO SO MUCH nicer!!!

 

 oh wells.

 

we went to pick zoe, pauline and colin up from wayne’s house coz pauline was there to supervise wayne’s cg! then we kind of got lost coz according to congyan, zoe and i are broken down and spoilt GPRS! HAHA. plse dun ever trust me with my sense of direction! haha.

 

we saw wayne’s cg at prata house!! they copy us lor! tsk tsk! haha. =PP

 

fellowship was good! just had some time to chill out with each other! even tho i was very afraid each time roy’s phone rang coz i’m afraid that his mum would call! haha. but i’m so glad that roy joined us!!! ((((((:

 

praying real hard for his salvation!!!!

 

God, plse do a work in his life! thank You Lord!! (:

ministered

so yes, God ministered to me in a way that only He could yesterday during cell group meeting.

God brought me back to those times when i struggled… fought… faced difficulties but yet, eventually, i still emerged victorious! the many battles, struggles and difficulties that i fought tgt with God! indeed, God is the strength of my heart! the only way to get out of a valley is not by escaping, or walking round it, but by walking through it! and not walking thru it alone, but walking thru it WITH God!!

then in a still small voice, God spoke to me and said, “you have come this far… dun give up… dun give up on Me… press on to the dreams and visions that u have for Me…”

there and then, i wept. i’ve nv cried so much in the presence of God for quite some time. becoz when i felt like crying, i’d stopped myself from doing so… only becoz i was tired of having to cry over the same stuff. it was such a wrong thing to do. i was just causing myself to become emotionally shutdown and running away from my problems. 

but suddenly, a touch from heaven during cell group meeting! i felt that every hardness of heart in me melted away. God restored my soul. God lifted me up from my fears, failures and disappointments.

time and again when i feel like giving up… time and again when i feel so discouraged, God is never too early and never late! but He is ALWAYS RIGHT ON TIME!!

a refreshing touch from heaven.. a divine encounter with God once again.

i wanna pen it down in greater detail in my notebook.

thank You Jesus… (:

and today was the start of SOT!! – SOT ORIENTATION!! DD

we played human monopoly! and tho it was physically very tiring and demanding, it was nevertheless fun!!!! TEAM 1 ROCKS!!! i love my team!!! (((((:

it started off a bit weird for me becoz i was upset joce, peng and ching feng were not in the same group as yulin, wei lin and i. but every disappointment, God used it to turn around for a new appointment! my team turned out more fun and enthu than expected!! hehe. i love team 1!!! DDD

got pple to go crazy and enthu with me! esp tan yulin and BWL – bimbo wei lin! haha. they added much more joy, fun and laughter to the team! haha. not forgetting the rest of my other team mbrs! they were equally as fun to be with as well!!! DD and zengmin is like guan.. always making fun of me!! TSK TSK!!!!!!

i really love the whole atmosphere and fellowship with team 1 and the rest of the SOT students! there really is a difference in fellowship when God is amongst our midst! (:

quoting shane, “ur definitely going to miss ur SOT days becoz of this group of frens (referring to team 1)” and i so TOTALLY agree!!! (:

i’m foreseeing that this blog is gonna be filled with posts on SOT and team 1 very soon!! after my exams!! hehe. DD

today is the start.. the beginning of a new adventure with YOU Daddy God!! stretch my capacity! enlarge my tents!

take all of me.. i give You my all for all of You… (:

hearing from above

God has been speaking to me quite a bit for the past few days! haha. i’m so happy!! and for now, i’m trying to collect all my tots and recall every single thing that He told me so that i wont miss out anything! haha.

in point forms..

• connect group prayer chain for the whole week
• community svc outreaches
• hall saturation
• delivered from the spirit of fear
• the element of faith is TRUST
• find Him in the secret place
• it’s the season of much more prayer and fasting

today when pauline prayed for the connect group leaders during cell group meeting, i saw an image of a glass broken with oil flowing. immediately, i knew that the oil was the anointing of God. i knew wat God was trying to tell me. if i desire more of God’s anointing to be upon me, i have to go to another level of brokeness… and hence, the fasting for this whole week. fasting will help me break the yoke of bondages and fasting will help me to lean more on God’s strength.

and i realise sth.. God speaks to me quite a lot in the form of deep impressions of images and sometimes words. but yet, God will always give me the interpretation for the images that i see in my spirit. i wonder, one of the gifts of the holy spirit is the interpretation of tongues.. no interpretation of images. haha. so im wondering where this gift falls under? maybe words of knowledge huh? haha.

anyway, the voice of God is getting clearer and clearer to me. there was one point that pauline said during cg today.. she said that the voice of God shld be a voice that is familiar to u.. not a voice that seems foreign and u dun recognise. so i started pondering if i could recognise the voice of God. and i’m happy to say that i do!!! haha. i can tell the difference between God’s voice and my inner voice.

wateva it is, when God speaks, i just noe it and that’s AWESOME! haha.

God speaks to me in 2 ways – deep impressions of images/words and a voice that only i can hear in my spirit when i plug in to Him (:

i think this CNY i’ll be spending it with my notes and books. i’m so gonna use this time to catch up with my work!! i was packing my notes and i realised… GOSH!! i’m in the 4th week of my school!!! besides going thru my 1st week lecture notes, i’ve yet to revise my 2nd and 3rd week lecture notes!!! i’m so dead!! and based on my experience in sem 1, it’s NOT good to pile up all my work becoz the projects are gonna take their toll on me soon!!

so pompompam!!! it’s time to catch up and buck up!! and NOT lag behind ANYMORE!!!!!!!!! go pompom go!!!!

study study study study study study study study!!!!!

i must study

i must study

i must study

cg steamboat today was awesome!!! had such a great time just fellowshipping!! thanks janice, rachel and shuling for coming!!!!! loves!!!

meeting my CoG tmr!!! looking forward to it!! it’s gonna be an AWESOME time!!! (:

once again, i found renewed strength and renewed joy! thank You Lord! (:

many things have been happening in my life even tho it’s only the 27th day into the year. some were good, whereas some were bad. but i thank God that in my opinion, every bad thing that happened, every disappointment that i faced, God used them and turned it around into a new appointment. indeed, God will never allow any disappointment that i face to end on a bad note becoz i have victory in Christ Jesus! PTL!!

a few significant things that happened this week which i really wanna blog down.

on the tuesday that just passed recently, i was talking to pauline online. she told me that she just read the email which i sent her last sat after svc.  i would not go into the details of the email becoz i feel that its rather personal. but that convo with pauline online sent me tearing buckets in front of my laptop. her words of affirmation, words of assurance was indeed all that i wanted to hear.

i was completely honest to pauline abt my tots and feelings becoz i feel that if i cant come before my leader and be totally transparent with her, i would not be able to go up to the next level. so PTL that i plucked up my courage and told her stuff which i shld have done so a long time ago! it totally felt like a very heavy burden being lifted off. but i thank God for such an understanding and loving leader in my life! (:

on thursday, i went down to powerhouse to pray with pauline. before we prayed, pauline started sharing with me abt the connect group system which the church will be starting. as i heard pauline share abt this system, tho it may not be sth really new, but man!! i was (and still am) REALLY EXCITED abt it!! i thank God for the opportunity of being able to be put in the position of a COGL. i believe that in this new position, it would help me to be more equipped and more trained for the things to come in the near future. (: i’ve alr started planning and visualizing for my COG!! i could not get any more excited than this!! tho i was tired that day when i went down to pray, but in my spirit, sth was stirring. in my spirit, i was excited for the great things that are gonna take place this year!!

and before we prayed, pauline gave me a short time of discipleship! i can never tell all u pple out there how much i like discipleship classes becoz it is thru discipleship that i can really learn to grow and enlarge my capacity! words alone cannot fully expressed how much imptance i place on discipleship.

anyhows, as pauline shared with me, she also told me that when she read my email abt my goals for 2008, she really hopes too that in this new year, this particular goal of mine could be fulfilled as well! pauline even told me that she has alr toked to pastor abt it and yes, pastor oso agreed that this is THE year for that goal of mine to come to pass! PTL! (: i thank God that i did not give up. tho there were times of discouragement, i thank God that i still clung on. thank You Jesus. (:

cell group meeting on friday night was awesome!! a touch from heaven was all i need to keep me propelling and moving forward!

how wonderful

how beautiful

name above every name

exalted high

Jesus

as i worshipped, the beauty of Jesus just overwhelmed me. the beauty of His name reminded me to call upon the name of Jesus in difficult times. at times, we take the name of Jesus for granted. at times, we just say the name of Jesus without really calling out to Him from the depths of our hearts. but that very night, i sat there calling out “Jesus… Jesus… Jesus…” there was such a yearning… such a desperate cry. and man! the presence of God… the beauty of Jesus just flooded the place. as i gave a word in cell group, i almost teared. the presence of God was overwhelming.

svc on sat was awesome too!! there was a strong atmosphere and the presence of God just saturated the whole hall. AR Bernard shared abt the Holy Spirit. during worship, the Holy Spirit just reminded me of the times when i have neglected Him. i rmb God. i rmb Jesus. but yet, there were times i neglected the Holy Spirit. God sent down His Helper, the Holy Spirit to be my friend, my comforter, my guide. He is closer to me than i tot. but yet, i fail to realise that at times and thinking that God seems so far away when actually, His Holy Spirit is just right next to me.

during svc ytd, the encounter was just so real. i literally felt someone standing very very close in front of me. but when i opened my eyes, the person who was sitting in front of me was much further than the closeness that i experienced. there and then, i knew that it was the Holy Spirit. this is my first time, i saw the outline of the Holy Spirit. He’s really, like wat Pastor Ulf says, a person… the built of a man. as i type this entry, i can rmb that outline so clearly.

but svc ytd wasnt all just that! there was such a closeness, such a connection btwn the Holy Spirit and me. and i saw, in my spirit, a picture. a picture of 2 hearts linking tgt. at first i didnt understand wat God was trying to tell me. i prayed and prayed and finally, God spoke.

i drew this picture down in my notebook today. this picture is significant becoz it will always serve to remind me that at times when i feel alone.. at times when i feel like no one understands… at times when i feel discouraged, the Holy Spirit is right next to me. He is a part of my being. He understands me. He noes me. He noes what is in my heart. and most imptly, His heart is beating tgt with mine. there is a link. there is a connection btwn the both of us. (:

after svc ytd, i went over to the children church to celebrate tim’s birthday with a few others. a birthday celebration turned out to be a meeting with paul for me. paul told me some stuff… positive stuff. indeed, promotion comes when u least expect it. but… this isnt the promotion that i desire. i thank God for this opportunity.. but i’ve toked to pauline alr and i clearly noe where my desire is. (:

i went for svc today as well! it was a great svc! but it’s such a pity that due to time constraint, Dr Ar Bernard could not share the msg in full! ):

we sang “God of my forever” for worship and as i knelt down in the presence of God, tears just started flowing. there is one line which i particularly like alot “on this altar, i’ve written my life…” and today, i climbed back to the altar of God telling Him that i surrender all to Him. there and then, i saw an image in my spirit once again. this time, i saw my signature. and i knew immediately that that was my signature to God. signing my life to Him on His altar.

take all of me. i give You everything, Lord, in exchange for all of You.

here i am. send me. (:

i love You Jesus! (:

my dear frens out there, just like wat Dr Ar Bernard shared during svc today, i invite u with ALL sincerity… from the depths of my heart… to come and noe my Jesus… my God. come and noe this Person. Christianity is a relationship with this Person called God. NOT a r/s with some religious system. my frens, my God is real. my God is true. my God is STILL and will FOREVER be alive! (:

anyway, i forgot to mention abt this very cute boy that i saw on sat after svc at children church!! his name is rayston! i think that’s how u spell it! he’s only 3 yrs old!! SUPER CUTE!!!

that’s rayston and me!!! his face is SO small la!! like a dwarf!! and my face looks GIGANTIC next to his!! haha!

i asked him to pose for the camera and this was his pose! HAHA.

he wanted to get his hands on my handphone camera so he took a picture for me! not bad i would say… for a 3-yr-old kid! ahaha.

rayston’s brother, rayna, wanted to play with my handphone cam too! so he helped the both of us take a photo!! hee.

another shot of rayston!! i asked him to pose for the camera and this was his pose! haha. i really like him alot!! think he’s so so so cute!!! some kids are very shy in front of the cam or u have to “plse…………” them so that they will take a photo for u. but rayston was so open and candid!! i like him!! hehe. small boyboys make my day!!! WOOTS!! haha.