the love of my Father (:

recently, there have been a few pple in my life who asked me why am i such a devoted christian? why do i go to the extent of attending bible school? do i want to be a pastor? a preacher? etc etc…

 

well, these questions got me thinking. i started thinking if i’m attending bible school becoz it seems like it’s the norm to do so (at least it seems so becoz the pple around me are attending bible school)… am i going to church for the sake of going? am i going to church out of a routine?

 

many questions came to my head.. but all these questions serve only to proof one thing – that i have a relationship with God! (:

 

i’m a devoted Christian becoz i know that God loves me and becoz i love God.

i’m a devoted Christian becoz in God, i find my identity.

i’m a devoted Christian becoz of my relationship with God.

i’m a devoted Christian becoz Jesus forgave me of all my sins.

i’m a devoted Christian becoz of the many encounters that i had with God. all these encounters can nv be replaced with anything else in my life. i guess it’s really becoz of these encounters that i noe and i noe that God is true, God is faithful, God is My Abba Father. (:

 

i’m attending bible school becoz i noe that God has called me.

i’m attending bible school becoz i want to noe so much more abt God.

i’m attending bible school becoz i’m hungry for more of Him.

 

 

i can give my frens a whole list of reasons why i’m such a devoted Christians but that does not beat experiencing God for yourself! i hope that my life itself is the message… that i’m living out the very message that Jesus left when He died for us on the cross! (:

 

yes, i made many sacrifices going to bible school… attending church, cell group, prayer meetings, outreaches etc… and many asked me if it’s worth it. my answer is YES, it’s all worth it. becoz the ultimate sacrifice is not the sacrifices that i’ve made but it is Jesus sacrificing His life for me… for u… for all mankind. (:

 

so yes, i love God but i noe that my love for Him cannot be compared to His unconditional love for me (:

knowledge vs love

if u are given a choice to choose either knowledge or love, which would u choose?

 

i would choose love.. (:

no greater love than this ((:

dear God,

 

i pray that let my words carry weight, Your presence, Your glory and Your anointing… anoint me from the crown of my head to the sole of my feet… thank You Jesus! (:

 

the question of love kept surfacing in my mind for the past few days. i kept questioning myself.. how much do i love God? how much do i love others? how much do i love myself? has my love for myself gone to the extent of self-centeredness? self-vainity? or has my love for others grown to the point that i’m willing to take that extra mile for every fren that i noe?

 

as i do a self-check, i really dunno where i stand. is it God, me, others? or is it me, God, others? or is it God, others, me? when i think of the sacrifices i make for others, i think it’s the 3rd choice. but yet, when i think of wat Jesus had done for me on the cross, i pale in comparison. then when i ponder over whether i love God more than myself… frankly, i really dunno. haha.

 

but i came to the realisation that…

 

LOVE = OBEDIENCE + SACRIFICE

 

becoz Jesus loves us, He OBEYed God’s word and SACRIFICED His life as a way to redeem and save our souls!

 

today, i had a revelation of the cross. no doubt, we all noe that the vertical beam means loving God wholeheartedly and the horizontal beam means loving pple fervently.

 

but now, if u realise, both the vertical and horizontal beams of the cross are NEVER of equal lengths. it’s always the vertical beam longer than the horizontal beam. so which means, my love for God should far surpass my love for pple. just like wat one verse says that when comparing my love for pple to my love for God, it would SEEM like as tho its hatred towards others simply becoz my love for Him is just so so so deep!

 

then where does the love for myself stand?

 

on the cross, it talks abt love for God and love for others.. wat abt love for myself?

 

if i can put it bluntly across, it can be found no where on the cross. why? becoz when Jesus died on the cross for u and me, His love for God and mankind far surpass His love for Himself.

 

Jesus loves you and me so so so much that He was willing to give His life up as a way of redemption for u and me. but does that mean that Jesus didnt love Himself? no, He loved Himself. but yet, His love for others is far greater and immeasurable when compared to His love for Himself.

 

a cross is never a cross when the vertical beam or the horizontal beam is missing. so wat does this mean? we cant love others without loving God and we cant love God without loving others! the former means that by our own strength, we cant love others much becoz humans are selfish and self-centered by nature. but yet, when we love God, we find it easy to love pple because with God, He feels our hearts with love that fills to the brim and to the overflowing. and the latter means that when we love God, we cannot help but to love His creation..

 

so it is, that even tho we all noe that we shld love… that we shld love God, others then myself, but we need to all come to the revelation of noeing wat love and loving God, others then myself really means. (:

plse speak my love language…

if not, i wont feel ur love…

i was talking to miss ipei and this was wat she said..

(ms ipei) says:
i think if we want to lead a group, we must really love the pple
(ms ipei) says:
to love just fellowshipping with them
(ms ipei) says:
to be with them
(ms ipei) says:
leadership is all abt influence
(ms ipei) says:
and if we love the people and the people love their leaders
(ms ipei) says:
then the leaders will definitely have influence over them

how true… (: