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C – Christ-centered
O – Ownership
N – Now (seize the critical moment. seize every opportunity. dun procrastinate)
N – Not compromising (in the world but not of the world)
E – Empyreal (formed of pure light or fire)
C – Commitment
T – Transition, Transformation
it’s time to CONNECT!! (:
COGs GO!!! 😀
once again, i found renewed strength and renewed joy! thank You Lord! (:
many things have been happening in my life even tho it’s only the 27th day into the year. some were good, whereas some were bad. but i thank God that in my opinion, every bad thing that happened, every disappointment that i faced, God used them and turned it around into a new appointment. indeed, God will never allow any disappointment that i face to end on a bad note becoz i have victory in Christ Jesus! PTL!! 😀
a few significant things that happened this week which i really wanna blog down.
on the tuesday that just passed recently, i was talking to pauline online. she told me that she just read the email which i sent her last sat after svc. i would not go into the details of the email becoz i feel that its rather personal. but that convo with pauline online sent me tearing buckets in front of my laptop. her words of affirmation, words of assurance was indeed all that i wanted to hear.
i was completely honest to pauline abt my tots and feelings becoz i feel that if i cant come before my leader and be totally transparent with her, i would not be able to go up to the next level. so PTL that i plucked up my courage and told her stuff which i shld have done so a long time ago! it totally felt like a very heavy burden being lifted off. but i thank God for such an understanding and loving leader in my life! (:
on thursday, i went down to powerhouse to pray with pauline. before we prayed, pauline started sharing with me abt the connect group system which the church will be starting. as i heard pauline share abt this system, tho it may not be sth really new, but man!! i was (and still am) REALLY EXCITED abt it!! i thank God for the opportunity of being able to be put in the position of a COGL. i believe that in this new position, it would help me to be more equipped and more trained for the things to come in the near future. (: i’ve alr started planning and visualizing for my COG!! i could not get any more excited than this!! tho i was tired that day when i went down to pray, but in my spirit, sth was stirring. in my spirit, i was excited for the great things that are gonna take place this year!!
and before we prayed, pauline gave me a short time of discipleship! i can never tell all u pple out there how much i like discipleship classes becoz it is thru discipleship that i can really learn to grow and enlarge my capacity! words alone cannot fully expressed how much imptance i place on discipleship.
anyhows, as pauline shared with me, she also told me that when she read my email abt my goals for 2008, she really hopes too that in this new year, this particular goal of mine could be fulfilled as well! pauline even told me that she has alr toked to pastor abt it and yes, pastor oso agreed that this is THE year for that goal of mine to come to pass! PTL! (: i thank God that i did not give up. tho there were times of discouragement, i thank God that i still clung on. thank You Jesus. (:
cell group meeting on friday night was awesome!! a touch from heaven was all i need to keep me propelling and moving forward!
how wonderful
how beautiful
name above every name
exalted high
Jesus
as i worshipped, the beauty of Jesus just overwhelmed me. the beauty of His name reminded me to call upon the name of Jesus in difficult times. at times, we take the name of Jesus for granted. at times, we just say the name of Jesus without really calling out to Him from the depths of our hearts. but that very night, i sat there calling out “Jesus… Jesus… Jesus…” there was such a yearning… such a desperate cry. and man! the presence of God… the beauty of Jesus just flooded the place. as i gave a word in cell group, i almost teared. the presence of God was overwhelming.
svc on sat was awesome too!! there was a strong atmosphere and the presence of God just saturated the whole hall. AR Bernard shared abt the Holy Spirit. during worship, the Holy Spirit just reminded me of the times when i have neglected Him. i rmb God. i rmb Jesus. but yet, there were times i neglected the Holy Spirit. God sent down His Helper, the Holy Spirit to be my friend, my comforter, my guide. He is closer to me than i tot. but yet, i fail to realise that at times and thinking that God seems so far away when actually, His Holy Spirit is just right next to me.
during svc ytd, the encounter was just so real. i literally felt someone standing very very close in front of me. but when i opened my eyes, the person who was sitting in front of me was much further than the closeness that i experienced. there and then, i knew that it was the Holy Spirit. this is my first time, i saw the outline of the Holy Spirit. He’s really, like wat Pastor Ulf says, a person… the built of a man. as i type this entry, i can rmb that outline so clearly.
but svc ytd wasnt all just that! there was such a closeness, such a connection btwn the Holy Spirit and me. and i saw, in my spirit, a picture. a picture of 2 hearts linking tgt. at first i didnt understand wat God was trying to tell me. i prayed and prayed and finally, God spoke.
i drew this picture down in my notebook today. this picture is significant becoz it will always serve to remind me that at times when i feel alone.. at times when i feel like no one understands… at times when i feel discouraged, the Holy Spirit is right next to me. He is a part of my being. He understands me. He noes me. He noes what is in my heart. and most imptly, His heart is beating tgt with mine. there is a link. there is a connection btwn the both of us. (:
after svc ytd, i went over to the children church to celebrate tim’s birthday with a few others. a birthday celebration turned out to be a meeting with paul for me. paul told me some stuff… positive stuff. indeed, promotion comes when u least expect it. but… this isnt the promotion that i desire. i thank God for this opportunity.. but i’ve toked to pauline alr and i clearly noe where my desire is. (:
i went for svc today as well! it was a great svc! but it’s such a pity that due to time constraint, Dr Ar Bernard could not share the msg in full! ):
we sang “God of my forever” for worship and as i knelt down in the presence of God, tears just started flowing. there is one line which i particularly like alot “on this altar, i’ve written my life…” and today, i climbed back to the altar of God telling Him that i surrender all to Him. there and then, i saw an image in my spirit once again. this time, i saw my signature. and i knew immediately that that was my signature to God. signing my life to Him on His altar.
take all of me. i give You everything, Lord, in exchange for all of You.
here i am. send me. (:
i love You Jesus! (:
my dear frens out there, just like wat Dr Ar Bernard shared during svc today, i invite u with ALL sincerity… from the depths of my heart… to come and noe my Jesus… my God. come and noe this Person. Christianity is a relationship with this Person called God. NOT a r/s with some religious system. my frens, my God is real. my God is true. my God is STILL and will FOREVER be alive! (:
anyway, i forgot to mention abt this very cute boy that i saw on sat after svc at children church!! his name is rayston! i think that’s how u spell it! he’s only 3 yrs old!! SUPER CUTE!!! 😀
that’s rayston and me!!! his face is SO small la!! like a dwarf!! and my face looks GIGANTIC next to his!! haha!
i asked him to pose for the camera and this was his pose! HAHA.
he wanted to get his hands on my handphone camera so he took a picture for me! not bad i would say… for a 3-yr-old kid! ahaha. 😀
rayston’s brother, rayna, wanted to play with my handphone cam too! so he helped the both of us take a photo!! hee. 😀
another shot of rayston!! i asked him to pose for the camera and this was his pose! haha. i really like him alot!! think he’s so so so cute!!! some kids are very shy in front of the cam or u have to “plse…………” them so that they will take a photo for u. but rayston was so open and candid!! i like him!! hehe. small boyboys make my day!!! WOOTS!! haha. 😛
i was talking to miss ipei and this was wat she said..
(ms ipei) says:
i think if we want to lead a group, we must really love the pple
(ms ipei) says:
to love just fellowshipping with them
(ms ipei) says:
to be with them
(ms ipei) says:
leadership is all abt influence
(ms ipei) says:
and if we love the people and the people love their leaders
(ms ipei) says:
then the leaders will definitely have influence over them
how true… (:
i just msged my member this: “be strong. God will see u thru. (: “
it felt like as tho i was msging and talking to myself.
this is where i wanna go this year!!
i’ve been thinking SOT, dream SOT, eat SOT, drink SOT, sleep SOT, fast SOT!!
i really really wanna go SOT this year!!
going on a one week daniel fast next week for SOT, cell and my own walk with God. (:
God, plse come through for me… plse provide me with the finances that i need for the sOT school fees. thank You Jehovah Jireh. in Jesus’ name, AMEN! (:
it’s 4am in the morning now!! i noe that i shld be sleeping at such an ungodly hour but it doesnt feel very much like its 4am! one hour ago, i tot it was 1am in the morning! haha. i’ve got a pretty much screwed up body clock!
i noe that i blogged in my previous entry that pple walk in and out of our lives at different seasons that we’re going thru. but i noe for sure that there are some pple who will always always remain in my life no matter which season i’m going thru. and one of them is none other than beloved jen!!
i had a good talk with her over msn and i thank God for such a fren like her!
thank u for the encouragement. thank you for the reassurance. thank you for the words of affirmation! all those words were indeed timely encouragement from God! u seem to noe me better than i do! haha. tho i dun really see those qualities in myself, but still, thanks for reassuring me! maybe becoz negative words seem to always be able to find their way to me, it feels like its been such a long long time since someone reassured me like u do. (:
wateva it is, i still love toking to good old jenn!! hehe. 😀
toking to esther debra leong today was great! (:
it was very nice toking to her and just sharing with each other abt our stuffs. (:
i realise that we are pretty much the same… and currently in the same boat as well.
its amazing how God brings pple tgt and i believe that esther walked into my life not by accident but by the divine appointment of God. (:
pple come and pple go. pple walk in and out of our lives at different seasons. and i thank God for all the frens who are in this season of my life! (:
i just want u all to noe that wateva happens in the future, all of u have left ur footprints in my life. (:
i believe with all my heart that this season of my life is THE CRITICAL MOMENT. i cannot give up. i must press on. and i believe that is why God sent down these pple around me to give me the encouragement that i need to carry on. (:
thank You Jesus. (:
i think God just spoke to me…
each time sth like this happens. each time i feel like hardening my heart, i will give sth. i will give a small gift to let u noe that i still love u no matter wat. becoz giving breaks the yoke of unforgiveness… becoz giving breaks the yoke of hatred and hardness of heart.. and becoz giving breaks all these yokes, true love will flow out when i give.
i will give unconditionally. i will give and give and keep giving be it in good times and bad times.
and when giving becomes a part of my lifestyle… when i’m able to give sacrificially… when i’m able to give and look beyond all that has happened and look beyond all the imperfections… that is when i’ve truly grown.. that is when i’ve truly learnt how to love those who are hard to love.
God sent down His only Son, Jesus, to die for us on the cross. God sent down Jesus to die for me… His purpose was to save me… God could have just chosen to hate me for being such a sinful person. but no, He didnt do that. instead, HE GAVE. He gave His only Son. He gave becoz He has forgiven me. He gave becoz He loves me.
each time sth like this happens again, i will give becoz i love u.
now, the peace of God surrounds my heart, mind and soul once again.
thank You Jesus.
ignorance is not a privilege but a misfortune
that was a quote that i learn during my biz legal law module today. i really like this module alot! made me more aware of the laws that singapore has. some really surprised me and i was taken aback! the lecturer was really good and funny as well! hope i can get her for my tutorial!
nevertheless, one lesson which i really learnt today during this lecture is the importance of being responsible for the words that u speak.
for example, when u scold someone a bitch or a bastard or a bankrupt, the person can sue u for tort of defamation. in fact, as long as u lower a person’s reputation in the presence of others, that is alr considered defamation. that person has all the right to sue u. and the only way u can defend urself in the presence of the judge is to justify that the person is really wat u claim to be. if u cant justify, u will have to pay for damages caused to the plantiff!
there and then, i was thinking abt wat the Bible says… that life and death lies in the power of ur words. moreover, the Bible oso teaches how all of us shld be careful with the words that we use and that a person who speaks without thinking is a fool. how true is that?
indeed, wateva is true in the spiritual realm is also true in the natural realm. the law teaches us how to be responsible for the things that we say… and so does the Bible. it is no wonder the Bible is also considered as the book of law governing the kingdom of God. (:
i am imperfect.
and so are u.
STOP breathing down my neck with everything u say.
STOP thinking that u are always the victim.
STOP IT.
i’m sick and tired of this.
i trusted u when u wrote that letter.
but it looks like wateva u wrote in that letter was ALL NONSENSE.
i’ll forgive u
but i’m building up my boundaries…
i’m sorry to say this..
but u broke my trust in u
if u have nth nice to say, then just keep it to urself.
period.
empyreal radiance 